Original post by hamburgerandbeansI am 18. I am a pretty easy going, normal guy. However there is nothing in life I particularly enjoy. I have no hobbies, I have no interests, there is nothing which really pleases me. I wouldn't say I am sad or miserable. Basically most things I find are 'ok' - not good but not bad.
Another thing is, I get bored of things very quickly. It starts off as alright and then becomes repetitive, too common, a routine, the same each day etc and I just fancy a change. Then if I get a change, eventually this thing which is new will get old and I would want something else new. This would then get old and the cycle will repeat over and over again.
For example, this may sound really shallow but it even applies to friendships and relationships. I have met some people who seem cool and I like spending time with them, but then after getting to know them, maybe a little while later I just feel every time I see them it is the same, I am bored of our conversations or the jokes, they just become boring people even though I once thought they were cool. Sometimes I get a massive crush on a girl, I will ask them out and I get bored of being in a relationship with the girl (not trying to sound arrogant). Or sometimes it is just a massive crush on a girl and the massive crush will go pretty fast and I will probably either hate the girl or just find her 'ok' (but nothing more).
In terms of hobbies, I don't like reading, i don't like watching movies, i don't really like sports (i only do some sports to remain healthy and not for enjoyment purposes).
I even went travelling for 4 and a half months round South East Asia. Everyone I met said it was the best thing of their lives, once in a lifetime, absolutely incredible and the best thing they have done, best decision they made, lifechanging experience blah blah blah. For me, it was just ok. I mean, it was a long time, i did some things which i guess were fairly cool and others things which weren't, but it was no different from being home really. When I was travelling I kind of missed just sitting there watching TV or playing on the xbox. But now I am back home and I think to myself 'why am i playing on the xbox.... it is not real life and isnt going to benefit me in any way. It just kills the time i guess'. Same applies with the TV.
When there are a group of people, everyone wants to meet each other and become friends. To be honest, I really cant be bothered. It is not that I am anti social but I just don't see the point in talking and making friends. What does it really achieve? What is the point of talking? You are just moving your mouth. It is a waste of breath. At the same time though I wouldn't say i am an introvert. I can be the loud guy if i wanted but a lot of the time i am too lazy to be bothered to do this/move my mouth, i can be the super quiet guy mostly because i just dont feel the need to make friends, i can be the clever guy, the dumb guy, the funny guy, the serious guy - it all depends who i want to be with that social group.
I don't know if i am lost, i don't know who i am deep down, i think i may be confused. I don't know what i like really and don't know what i want in life. As i said i am a pretty simple guy. I think i just want to get married one day, have kids and thats pretty much it. I don't feel the need to do anything spectacular. Just be your standard 'joe' you will meet. Not really friendly, not really unfriendly. Just standard, normal, average etc.
It is the same when I have had jobs (only part time ones). I have never found any of the jobs I have done any fun. I could never say I enjoyed them. But at the same time i never did not enjoy them. I just did them and got on with it.
I am going off to University in September and I know some people are worried they won't settle in, make friends etc. For me I pretty much don't care if I get there and become the 'cool' guy or the guy with no friends. It doesn't bother me slightly.
Sometimes after work, I will get home and just not know what to do. I have nothing to please me after work. No sort of hobbies. Nothing I will actually enjoy or find interesting.But at the same time I wouldn't be bored or angry. I just need something to keep me busy for a few hours until i can sleep again and start the next day off the exact same way.