I am from NI, going to Scotland for uni in September. I've been with my boyfriend for almost a year, my longest and most real relationship, and his first relationship. We love eachother, see eachother a few times a week, stay over when we can, have wee day trips and things, make the most of our times and we do have great times. It has gone SO well! But, in the back of our minds we both know that I'm leaving in September, which is realistic but it makes us both so annoyed and sad to really think about it, the fact that we HAVE to be apart. I have uni to look forward to but, in my mind, I'll be alone there without him to hold me, and he will just be left here, alone too, without me to comfort him, he will have his friends and family here though. I won't have anyone...:/
We have discussed it a few times that we think it wont work, and really, it won't, we both have our needs and we won't be able to get or give them to eachother. So, that's it. We know that we won't be together when I go.
When we argue, I just think about breaking up because I know were going to anyway. Am I being irrational or realistic?
I wish we didn't love eachother. How harsh is THAT?!
When we argue, we make up really easily and we are so good afterwards! It's so confusing :'(
Aw I just don't know what to do or how to feel.
Sometimes I think about my moving day, us saying goodbye and then that's it. Should that be it? I'll be busy with moving and looking forward to Scotland but I think my mind will also be torn at him..
ANY advice or feedback/thoughts would be greatly appreciated