Mental Health Support Society Mk X

Have had a really bad few days lately and last night i went out for my best friends birthday. Was having a great time until i ended up getting as drunk as anything and breaking down in front of my friends, i was so embarrassed they couldn't understand why i suddenly started crying. So i don't think alcohol helps at all with how im feeling lately. At one point i was sat outside just staring at the floor and i had this feeling come over me that i had never felt before. It was possibly the scariest and most horrid feeling i had ever felt. A thought came into my head and spun in my mind for about a minute and then disappeared. I was really really frightened. I didn't even feel like me. I felt like i was watching myself in a movie or something. Im really scared that this is taking a hold of me as last night for that few minutes was the weirdest and most depressed i had ever felt
im scared of myself, i feel i may do something stupid and im losing control, im unpredictable

Sometimes it's really hard to put your feelings into words

I keep reading about all of the people on this forum who have successful, perfect lives and everything falling into place and I feel so inferior and like a freak in comparison. Should really stop doing that.

I could do with a little comfort, my upstairs neighbour has guests in and all I can hear is loud drunken laughter, loads of stuff getting dropped and crashing, and dancing and loads of yelling and cheering like "do it do it do it"

Don't be so silly, you're not a freak.

I keep reading about all of the people on this forum who have successful, perfect lives and everything falling into place and I feel so inferior and like a freak in comparison. Should really stop doing that.

No? Then how come I have no friends anymore?

I can really relate to this. Feeling like I'm useless all the time, thinking about how everyone appears to have a much more successful life than me. Not so much on this forum, but the life people choose to display to the world on places like Facebook, where all the photos are of them at clubs or with their friends, or updating about all the cool stuff they bought or how they are soooo pissed off that their size 8 jeans are too baggy for them...

Makes me feel like I just want to quit the Internet. But then I live on here, cos there is nothing else I am confident enough to do.

I can really relate to this. Feeling like I'm useless all the time, thinking about how everyone appears to have a much more successful life than me. Not so much on this forum, but the life people choose to display to the world on places like Facebook, where all the photos are of them at clubs or with their friends, or updating about all the cool stuff they bought or how they are soooo pissed off that their size 8 jeans are too baggy for them...

Makes me feel like I just want to quit the Internet. But then I live on here, cos there is nothing else I am confident enough to do.

Anymore? What happened to them?

I keep reading about all of the people on this forum who have successful, perfect lives and everything falling into place and I feel so inferior and like a freak in comparison. Should really stop doing that.

TSR definitely makes me feel that way. I try and avoid those parts at all costs. Triggering as hell for me.

That's ridiculous have you asked them to keep it down a bit?

Nobody bothers speaking to me. I'm clearly too boring and stupid for them to associate with.

Sorry to hear it has that effect on you. I feel the same.