Mental Health Support Society Mk X

15 minute drive not walk, about 2 and a half miles from station.

Just had knock on door from neighbour apologising saying his niece turned up as its her birthday but they did plan to finish by midnight anyway, he did ask if I phoned but I said no.

He did say he was going to ask me to come up for a few.

He did say the police turned up in car, so they must of been in area.

Silence now apart from talking which is fine.

Oo shiny new thread. Not a bad day really, went shopping with a friend that I haven't seen in months. Bought some pjs as I seem to live in them at the moment. . She asked how bad I felt when I I decided to take time out from uni and I didn't know how to say that I wasn't safe, don't think she would have understood or believed me. Settled on saying that it was really bad and changing the subject. Don't think she noticed.

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Oo shiny new thread. Not a bad day really, went shopping with a friend that I haven't seen in months. Bought some pjs as I seem to live in them at the moment. . She asked how bad I felt when I I decided to take time out from uni and I didn't know how to say that I wasn't safe, don't think she would have understood or believed me. Settled on saying that it was really bad and changing the subject. Don't think she noticed.

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Sounds like you had a nice day shopping, who doesn't love PJs I have to sets one for bed and one for lounging around the house
I know how you feel I always try to change the subject when they're not going to be supportive or even understand. I have this one friend who always gets me and knows when I am trying to avoid the question, which is a good thing and sucks sometimes lol

I'm glad you had an ok day with your friend, though sorry you don't think she would understand. I think telling people about suicidality is one of the hardest things for me, because I struggle when people don't understand but it's almost worse when they DO, cos if they care they generally go all upset.

I'm seeing the new mental health advisor they've appointed at the university counselling service here tomorrow - seems that she'll be functioning like a CPN for me (GP referred me to the CMHT here, but CMHT said since the UCS have got an experienced CPN on board, why don't you see her and see if she can help) so will post about how that goes. I think the MHAs normally see students after they have returned from intermitting on MH grounds, so I'll give you a heads up on what she's like. The other one (now "senior MHA") was perfectly nice, but said she couldn't do anything to help me, so I'm really hoping this one is a little more useful. I'm not sure what I want or need from her, but it would be good to have someone I could make urgent crisis appointments with when that is necessary, or possibly just to touch base with every now and again and make sure I'm still eating and functioning. Really just hoping she will be a "safe" person, since I could do with one of them atm.

I spent a couple of hours just watching things and not thinking about anything with my OH and I was feeling a bit better. Went to print out the job specification for my interview tomorrow.and in the Person Specification it states it is DESIRABLE to have a driving licence however I must have missed in the Job Description where it says "Candidate must drive as they will be transporting paperwork between buildings". So there's basically no point me going because I don't drive. P***ed off is not the word.

I spent a couple of hours just watching things and not thinking about anything with my OH and I was feeling a bit better. Went to print out the job specification for my interview tomorrow.and in the Person Specification it states it is DESIRABLE to have a driving licence however I must have missed in the Job Description where it says "Candidate must drive as they will be transporting paperwork between buildings". So there's basically no point me going because I don't drive. P***ed off is not the word.

Annoying but ALL interview experience is a good thing, so try and go to it anyway. Maybe they can make arrangements such as public transport or something? If it's desirable in the job spec. then it's unreasonable to demand you have it later on.

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Can't sleep. Scared of nightmares again.

It is quoted as desirable in the Person Spec but above in the description of duties it does specify it's compulsory. It's my own fault, I should have read more closely. I know it sounds silly but at the moment I don't have the money spare to go to an interview unless there is a reasonable chance of me getting the job (which there wouldn't be here).

How far away is it then? I still think if you can, you should go - they may have another position that they haven't yet advertised that you are better suited for, or they may have put compulsory by mistake. If you're looking for jobs anyway and can get there then it can't hurt

It's about an hour away. There's nobody who can take me so I'm reliant solely on public transport or taxis. I've applied to other jobs as it's with the NHS (none of those said anything about a driving license).

Weird, I've never heard of an NHS job requiring a licence before; the ones here that require you to travel to other sites provide transport (shuttles between the three separate hospitals).

having a bad night, can't sleep and just really no idea what if any future I am supposed to have now, the only things keeping me going in life right now are my girlfriend, family and my political views and the utterly remote and feint hope they will come to fruition, which they won't, at all in fact, most likely the opposite will happen.

**** knows what I would do if I didn't have my girlfriend and family to support me and stuff or my Socialism to believe in, without these things then the entity that is me ceases to exist for all intents and purposes.

been acting like im all okay and strong to my girlfriend for last few weeks as well cause she is struggling herself, but I dont know how much longer I can keep that up (not much I guess as she's bound to read this so there you go. sigh.)

sorry to hear you're feeling like this hun . I'm around at the moment on Skype and text, so if you want a chat you know where I am. You can do this, I've seen how strong you can be even if you haven't seen it yourself



Sorry for my bad reply am a bit sleepy and stuff


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Wow, that sounds like some pretty severe tremors. I'm on haloperidol and have some slight tremor in my hands but anticholinergics have got rid of that pretty much entirely. I'm sorry to hear you had such a reaction to aripiprazole but at least it's gone now that's really good. I haven't noticed any tremors on quetiapine and I'm on the max dose so I reckon you might be ok on that, although I understand completely your reluctance to try another antipsychotic. How are you managing now that you aren't on any? That's what worries me a lot about TD, if I got it what would things be like off of antipsychotics completely.