That's awful! That first friend using your situation for attention, how would someone even think to do that, to a friend?! Or to anyone full stop, I don't understand, that's so horrid. It's a huge step to trust someone and they should have recognised that rather than doing things to make things worse
I'm sorry to hear the others don't take account of things either, a clubbing environment is just horrendous and they should understand that.
I'm really sorry things are like this IRL. I can sympathise with the isolation and things, is there anyone outside your group of friends you feel you can talk to and trust? You're not being mopey at all, but maybe there are things that might help you to handle your mood at the beginning of the day, possibly doing something active and distracting or something like that? It's difficult to do but might help to get some control over your mood and give you some power back.
About your exam, I don't know if I've asked you this before but have you told anyone at your sixth form about this? And I don't know if I've asked if you've seen a doctor or anything? It's really helpful to let them know about things if you can. You're a smart girl and you shouldn't be disadvantaged. Just take some deep breaths before you go in and try your best, that's all you can do, I think you might surprise yourself. Best of luck with it all.
Thank you, that's really kind. I'm quite lucky in that I got an appt quite quickly and with the same awesome counsellor I had beforehand so it'll make it easier. I need to learn to talk more during the sessions is the only thing, I can sit there for an hour and cry but it never helps. Have you considered counselling or CBT or anything like that? It seems like it might really help you too, though I think I remember you possibly telling me that you've had a bad experience with counselling before? Maybe you could try have it somewhere else or try someone else even? It's really important you get some support IRL and don't have to rely on friends that do the above