I think I forgot to reply so I'll just reply again anyway even if I have
Ohhhh I know the whole well if you were more positive then things would be a lot easier... YESSSSSS thanks captain obvious but that is pretty much the whole problem... depression and positivity aren't exactly best buddies!
I know what you mean friends wise - I just have my boyfriend... all my friends kind of ditched me since I first got diagnosed 5 years ago and new friends back off when they know about it... because I am the party pooper and unreliable if they want to go out or party etc... because 99% of the time I will turn them down... who wants to be friends with the girl who doesn't know how to have fun and is grumpy all the time?
Self confidence and self esteem... or rather lack of.. has really buggered me up too
i have turned down countless opportunities because i think i'm not good enough.
that's really good that you have a few teachers who will praise you though... i know what you mean, praise can really make you feel good even if it's just a simple well done nice piece of work there.... i'm not asking for OMG YOU ARE A GENIUS HOW DID THE WORLD SURVIVE WITHOUT YOU
although that'd be pretty cool
I don't think you're being pathetic - I feel exactly the same
I know the worthless feeling too... sometimes I just think well wtf what is the use of me being 'here' what exactly do i do? i am useless... but then i have to kind of force myself to think well i am not a bad person... it's not like i steal or hurt people or kill people or commit loads of crimes... i hate the fact i am just an average person though... i dunno i just never feeel good enough
thanks i hope so too