Had a crap evening
Probably stupid and delusional but here goes:
I really want to go on holiday this year. Told my dad around 3 weeks ago and asked him to look at it, but he didn't do that. Now I've showed him
what I want and the usual crap comes out. First of all he is going on about it being too expensive. I'm certain we could manage up to £2,500 if we don't get a new car (current one drinks too much petrol although I think there is something wrong with it) and not put laminate flooring upstairs (carpet is 5 years old and still very good compared to the **** some people have, and we don't have visitors that often). Then comes the food, and he is saying that there will be nothing for us to eat as we are Asian. Erm, hello, that is part of what holiday is about, trying something new. I wasn't happy about this and said in my school (majority Asian) most people will happily eat anything from the canteen but I can't and how it is his fault I've been brought up like that. Only to receive a lecture how everyone eats their food and stuff despite living in a different country. And I know there are going to be arguments about what my mum will wear as she is very modest. Then they wouldn't want to go to the evening entertainment which I really want to do, causing more problems.
I want a holiday where I can have a great time that I will remember for my whole life. After all, I'm 18 and a half now and how much longer would it be possible for the whole family to go on holiday together? Or how much longer would I want to go on holiday with them? This is the age where some people start to go on holiday with their mates.
Sorry, blurted it out. Not bothered if it doesn't make sense. No wonder I've turned out so withdrawn and isolated. Negative reinforcement is what I've had for most of my life, and the results show. Spent 10 minutes crying earlier, something that hasn't happened for ages.