I broke up with the one I loved 2 months back... we had an amazing time together... we were great friends for an year then we got together for a month... i got too attached... she had told me she'd break up with me after a month... knowing all this... i still got attached... ... she started working so she got busy and i think has moved on... i on the other hand... still am fighting my depression... and the worst part is we study in the same university, its a small uni and we have the same friends circle... and noone knows about us... so people assume we are really good friends... so i will have to see her talking to guys and all... and i will kill me from the inside... i sill love her... i am very depressed... i need some help... but the college counselor is out on a leave... she and i will meet each other after a 2 months in 10 days... so i am anxious about the meet
I am facing these problems
1. disturbed sleep pattern
2. easily angered at small things
3. feeling melancholic
4. when someone talks about her i get disturbed
5. chronic fatigue
6. concentration issues
7. anxiety issues
8. i am not a smoker... but i feel so stressed that I resort to smoking
9. unexplained headaches and stomach upset
10. once I had a manic episode wherein i slept for hardly 4 hours and worked out 2 times in day and I still wasnt tired, this mania lasted for a day and the next day I was shaking my hands and legs involuntary and after noon... i was so dead and lil depressed.
could I have bipolar or borderline? I will see my college counselor very soon