Mental Health Support Society Mk X

First thing tomorrow and thank you both. Urgh I just hate the pressure and I keep thinking if I don't turn up that's an ace excuse for failing :L.

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keep getting nose bleeds as well and the blood is really triggering. Messed up in work too. Just been a ****ing awful weekend and I feel crap and I feel awful

iv completely run out of energy, i feel dirty, but cant shower now, i just dont even know how to feel anymore. i feel like im constantly putting on a brave face for people, when inside im just crushed. im empty.

i dunno, recently iv been getting more and more ideas and thoughts about [bad word] and i really dont like it, i need to try and phone the drs tomorrow.

im going on a guiding event soon, and my mum will be having a health for for me, aswell as someone else (who i think judges me) and i have to put what meds im on and why and im so scared, i only managed to fill in part of it today, and my mum was questioning it, and i just told her i might have my meds changed soon, i havnt even told her whats wrong with me, i just cant. i dont know what to do, shes gonna read it i know she is

Guiding as in Girlguiding or guiding people round somewhere? Sorry, being nosy!!

You probably meant to do this anyway but where you've quoted Ice_Fire about spoilering - it still shows up in your post

hi guuyssss,
was wondering if anybody could provide me with my advice as i have nobody else to ask really..........basically this year i have entered myself for a levels exams, doing one at evening college, at the age of 21 for self-study as i have spent the previous year unemployed. Ive been feeling very down and isolated, one event in particular, led me on a downwards spiral. the last few months picked up so i entered myself for a level exams, however my dad has been diagnosed with cancer a week and a half ago i found out my dad has less than a year to live. even tho we dont get on its been really hard to accept. i dont know whether to withdraw or not from exams. i just threw up about half an hour because im feeling very unwell and underprepared. i have already taken one and my head was fuzzy and i know i have failed. but i dont wan a massive gap in my cv either :/ im also feeling very confused i feel like ive been struggling a lot by myself and im scared if i withdraw ill just stay in this rut.

Is anyone around at all?


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Hey,

There's not really a right or wrong answer about withdrawing from exams or not (sorry, I know that's not so helpful to hear!) but remember that if you do end up deciding to withdraw that you will be able to explain the gap on your CV, it's a perfectly legitimate reason to need some 'time out'.

Is it possible to resit the exams at a later date rather than withdrawing from them? My mum was diagnosed with terminal cancer just before exam time of my second year of uni, and I ended up throwing myself into revision and studying to 'cope', but I ended up missing one of my exams because I ended up in hospital and the uni let me resit it in August. When would be the next option for you to sit in the exams if you didn't feel able to at the moment?

It sounds like doing the exams if possible would be good for you if you're scared of withdrawing and ending up stuck in that rut again, so maybe you could try and have a go at them but apply for extenuating circumstances? Try to remember also to keep yourself in as much of a routine as possible - I don't know about you, but I was just all over the place when we got the news about my mum, sleeping and eating was all over the place, but if you can try to sleep regularly and eat properly it is helpful.

Is there anybody at all that you can talk to at the moment?

Hey, I think a few of you are on citalopram? Have any of you also noticed a change in pupil size?

It's quite strange I've been thinking I look slightly different in the mirror a lot recently and I think it's cos my pupils are larger. It's on the SE list after all so it's entirely possible. It would also explain why everything feels different recently cos larger pupils means less depth of field.

Bit of a eureka moment for me XD
It's actually made me feel quite a lot better cos I've been worried I was getting more anxious and jumpy but I think it's just that I can't see as much as usual


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I did on Diazepam. In fact it was so noticeable that when I got an emergency visit at 2am it was one of the first things they commented on... and I hadn't taken any for about 18 hours. Oops.

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I also had some weird eye things on Abilify, to be honest I just reacted terribly to that full stop.

So yeah, medication can definitely have an effect on your eyes, I wouldn't worry about it too much. If it's bothering you a lot, it's definitely worth asking if they can switch you to something else though!

girlguiding yes,a haha sorry, just so used to calling it guiding

hi guuyssss,
was wondering if anybody could provide me with my advice as i have nobody else to ask really..........basically this year i have entered myself for a levels exams, doing one at evening college, at the age of 21 for self-study as i have spent the previous year unemployed. Ive been feeling very down and isolated, one event in particular, led me on a downwards spiral. the last few months picked up so i entered myself for a level exams, however my dad has been diagnosed with cancer a week and a half ago i found out my dad has less than a year to live. even tho we dont get on its been really hard to accept. i dont know whether to withdraw or not from exams. i just threw up about half an hour because im feeling very unwell and underprepared. i have already taken one and my head was fuzzy and i know i have failed. but i dont wan a massive gap in my cv either :/ im also feeling very confused i feel like ive been struggling a lot by myself and im scared if i withdraw ill just stay in this rut.

I'm part of Guiding too I help with Guides. Are you in Rangers or a Leader?