Mental Health Support Society Mk X

Have you got any zopiclone or sleeping pills you could take and try to get to sleep? I've got a big list of distractions I can send you if you like, there may be one on there that takes your fancy.

i have buts its in the middle of my suitcase which is pack and downstairs
rory is on cam to me, so hes keeping an eye on me, i have a lamp on that i can leave on over night, and iv put music on my laptop, might change it to the radio, so theres talking aswell.

things have just been getting worse and worse recently, deffinately didnt need this tonight

thanks though

Ah thats annoying. Yeah the radio can be good - a human voice can be really good. Glad you've got Rory to talk to if you need to. Are you heading to his tomorrow?

Have you spoken to anyone about things getting worse for you? I noticed you had a counselling telephone appointment soon. I know phones can be really scary, but the counselling people will be expecting that. I've had phone assessments before, and they are pretty standard - just go through what has been going on for you, maybe ask you if there is anything you think that would help. I know it's hard, but try to relax, it will be okay, they are just there to try and help you. Maybe speaking to them about how things have gone downhill recently will help.

I remember you saying that you had been taken off your meds? Have things got worse since then? Maybe it would be worth going back to your GP and talking to them about medication, if you feel it was helpful?

Yeah the human voices help me
Yeah i am, hence the meds being in my suitcase so he can look after me

No i havnt iv always held stuff back from drs and stuff. So im hoping i can use the phone assesment to say stuff not face to face as thats easier for me.

No im having my meds cut down. Going back to 20mg cos apparently they wont help me im just slowly giving up on everything

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I feel like I'm being watched constantly. I've tried looking around for cameras but I can't see any and I can't let on to my wife what I'm doing as I know she'll shout at me. But I can't get rid of this feeling, it's making me extremely nervous and on edge constantly. The adverts on the bus were telling me to get off and run away but I can't do that as my wife will phone the police she told me before .The last thing I want is the police on my ass. But that leaves me with this problem, what do I do? I feel like I need to run away and hide somewhere safe, our apartment isn't a safe place anymore. I've spent the last week going to sleep on the sofa while my wife is on the computer so I'm not alone but it only helps so much and doesn't get rid of the feeling. What really needs to happen is that I need to run away but that leaves my wife alone and vulnerable I'm also too much of a coward to do that and face them on my own. Really feel scared and on edge.

Not sure I can do this. I have this deep sickening feeling and I feel like I'm losing control. Today has been horrible I want to just hide away cause this isn't right. None of this is right.

Ah good - hopefully it will be good fun! You guys got much planned?

That's a good idea, maybe write some stuff down too, so you say everything you want to on the phone.

Oh okay. Is that of Citalopram? Did they say why it wouldn't help. Sometimes medication won't help people, and talking treatments (like counselling) are better. For example, with me, my diagnosis is BPD, and the primary treatment isn't medication, it's therapy. However in my case, I take medication to help with co-morbid problems (psychotic features and depression). Even some people with depression won't respond to medication, and talking treatments will work much better (e.g. if there is previous trauma). Just because they don't think medication will help, doesn't mean there is no help. Have you ever had counselling or CBT before?

That must be a really horrible feeling. Is there anywhere you can go for a bit, just to get a bit of a break - like a mates house, or family? If you are worried about your girlfriend, maybe ask her to come with you? Have you talked to anyone about the cameras and feeling on edge? Like your mental health worker?

Feeling really anxious about calling my boss tomorrow. I need to let them know that when I was in work on Monday I was pretty contagious (I didn't realise that obviously). I don't mind doing that but I'm supposed to be at work on Saturday and Sunday and they'll want to know if I'm fit to work. I won't be contagious but there's a good chance I'll still have a pretty not-healthy-at-all rash all over my arms and hands which just doesn't look good. Problem is that I don't know how long it will take for the rash to go down, only thing I can see to do is just to say that I won't be contagious but I may still have a rash.
Feel strange posting on here about stuff that isn't directly MH but it's really triggering my anxiety.

All packed and ready for my trip gonna be so good seeing my boyfriend again. But im also looking forward to not seeing my step dad. Just gonna miss my sister. When i get back shell have about 4 weeks before she gives birth but today i just have to get through 4 trains and hope i dont break down in the middle of birmingham station again

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Feeling really anxious about calling my boss tomorrow. I need to let them know that when I was in work on Monday I was pretty contagious (I didn't realise that obviously). I don't mind doing that but I'm supposed to be at work on Saturday and Sunday and they'll want to know if I'm fit to work. I won't be contagious but there's a good chance I'll still have a pretty not-healthy-at-all rash all over my arms and hands which just doesn't look good. Problem is that I don't know how long it will take for the rash to go down, only thing I can see to do is just to say that I won't be contagious but I may still have a rash.
Feel strange posting on here about stuff that isn't directly MH but it's really triggering my anxiety.

Just think of seeing your bf again

Nice to hear you are doing good though!

I always pannic and cry just hope it goes smoothly

Not doing brilliantly but i guess im doing better...

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Thanks hun The same goes for you, too
I'm so glad that you're making some progress and you got good grades! That's amazing and you should take strength and confidence from it. I'm so pleased for you, I really am. You are a lovely person and deserve only the best from life

I feel like I'm being watched constantly. I've tried looking around for cameras but I can't see any and I can't let on to my wife what I'm doing as I know she'll shout at me. But I can't get rid of this feeling, it's making me extremely nervous and on edge constantly. The adverts on the bus were telling me to get off and run away but I can't do that as my wife will phone the police she told me before .The last thing I want is the police on my ass. But that leaves me with this problem, what do I do? I feel like I need to run away and hide somewhere safe, our apartment isn't a safe place anymore. I've spent the last week going to sleep on the sofa while my wife is on the computer so I'm not alone but it only helps so much and doesn't get rid of the feeling. What really needs to happen is that I need to run away but that leaves my wife alone and vulnerable I'm also too much of a coward to do that and face them on my own. Really feel scared and on edge.

I'm still going through a rough patch, I'm feeling anxious over silly things, not wanting to go out and just finding everything a massive effort. The increased AD does doesn't seem to have done much so looks like I might have to change, urgh. Ah well, trying to stay positive