I'm a fat waste of space that is a massive failure. Iv failed at everything in my life Who would want to run after me to make sure I'm ok, no one, people would laugh at me that's all
I'm a fat waste of space that is a massive failure. Iv failed at everything in my life Who would want to run after me to make sure I'm ok, no one, people would laugh at me that's all
You're not a failure, you're just going through a hard time both mentally and with life circumstances. And I've already said we all care about you and would want to look after you.
Maybe I'm just not trying hard enough to be happy. I'm going to try harder.
I decided that instead of working on myself and my probably numerous issues, I'd just get some fluffy pet mice instead! Even if you can't change the big things wrong in your life straight away, there are usually all kinds of little things you can do to be nicer to yourself.
It went quite well. They gave me some options for treatment and reassured me about some stuff. I like how blunt yet still supportive it was. Not treated like I'm odd but also not treated as if I'm just being attention seeking
I decided that instead of working on myself and my probably numerous issues, I'd just get some fluffy pet mice instead! Even if you can't change the big things wrong in your life straight away, there are usually all kinds of little things you can do to be nicer to yourself.
I don't really deserve nice things though
I want a kitten so bad, haha. Definitely can't get one.
Maybe I'm reading into this too much but I got a text saying my blood test results are in. Usually I'll phone up and be given my results like that but this time they asked me to make an appointment to discuss it. I can't help but get the feeling they wouldn't ask me to make an appointment about it an waste their time unless it was something worth discussing and normal, healthy blood is not worth discussing.
You're not a failure, you're just going through a hard time both mentally and with life circumstances. And I've already said we all care about you and would want to look after you.
I am, I know I am and so does everyone else.
Rory's going back to sleep and I know I'm going downhill
It went quite well. They gave me some options for treatment and reassured me about some stuff. I like how blunt yet still supportive it was. Not treated like I'm odd but also not treated as if I'm just being attention seeking
Maybe I'm reading into this too much but I got a text saying my blood test results are in. Usually I'll phone up and be given my results like that but this time they asked me to make an appointment to discuss it. I can't help but get the feeling they wouldn't ask me to make an appointment about it an waste their time unless it was something worth discussing and normal, healthy blood is not worth discussing.
If they only asked you to make an appointment, rather than saying you need to come in immediately or anything then chances are it's just a minor deficiency, e.g. anaemia. I'd just make the appointment so you won't be worrying about it for too long.
well you can't define your entire self over one thing, no matter how unacceptable that thing might seem. i bet you're good at other things? we've all got strengths and weaknesses, i know you do because you're a human
If they only asked you to make an appointment, rather than saying you need to come in immediately or anything then chances are it's just a minor deficiency, e.g. anaemia. I'd just make the appointment so you won't be worrying about it for too long.
yep i had to make an appointment and got an all clear
Despite my terrible indecisiveness about most things in life I actually managed to choose a book and finish it in less than a week!
Albeit it was quite short but I agreed with a post ages ago about reading being such a struggle so reading a book for the first time in over a year feels great .
I finished that one and started another book today. I'm going try and read everyday like I used to once upon a time... I'm trying to get back my passion for reading as well as having a distraction and being slightly productive.
Sorry for the random post! Although hopefully there is a lot more randomness to be posted as I do miss this thread and the people on it... apologises for forever being useless at posting .
You don't have to act 'strong' in front of everybody, especially not your boyfriend! You're allowed to display human emotions, which is all you've been doing.
Despite my terrible indecisiveness about most things in life I actually managed to choose a book and finish it in less than a week!
Albeit it was quite short but I agreed with a post ages ago about reading being such a struggle so reading a book for the first time in over a year feels great .
I finished that one and started another book today. I'm going try and read everyday like I used to once upon a time... I'm trying to get back my passion for reading as well as having a distraction and being slightly productive.
Sorry for the random post! Although hopefully there is a lot more randomness to be posted as I do miss this thread and the people on it... apologises for forever being useless at posting .
Really pleased for you, plus just good to hear from you in general.
My waters broke at 1.30 this morning, started having short regular contractions shortly after. Went straight to hospital. 2cm dilated. Going to be here soon.
My waters broke at 1.30 this morning, started having short regular contractions shortly after. Went straight to hospital. 2cm dilated. Going to be here soon.
My waters broke at 1.30 this morning, started having short regular contractions shortly after. Went straight to hospital. 2cm dilated. Going to be here soon.