Bloody hell, my GP surgery is ****. They only gave me half a month's prescription of mirtazapine last time, which means I've had to lower my dose to stop from running out whilst on holiday, which is probably contributing to downward spiral in MH over that period. Still on 225mg venlafaxine as well, but the mirtazapine-venlafaxine combination is meant to work synergistically and that is the only thing that has helped...
Anyway, called up to re-order and apparently I can't because I need to fill in another temporary residents' form. Which is total bull**** because I filled one in less than a month ago, and apparently they've lost it. And they close for lunch, which means I can't go during my lunch break and I'm going to have to rearrange that and employers will give me **** for it. Not sure if I'll be able to get the meds on time either, even though I'm only taking half my normal dose, so might have to do discontinuation-reintroduction fun. Excellent. Seriously ****ing fab.
Am near tears cos I can't do this, is so basic but it's taking all my energy. Definitely not well enough to work atm but if I don't I'll run out of money mid-year. And can't ditch job mid-summer anyway. Plus my parents would kick me out. And trying to communicate with people at doctors' surgery who are getting pissy with me just because I need meds and it's a Monday morning is so urgh. Can't. Do. This. Alternative seems so much easier and this is such a pathetic thing.