The idea of results day looming ahead is constantly at the back of my mind... I wouldn't care if I didn't go to a good grammar school where everyone will be getting straight A's and better. The worse thing is that I could have done something to ease my nerves now... by revising! For most of my subjects, I didn't revise until the night before in bed using my phone's flashlight! In other subjects, I revised the 2 or 3 hours I had before the exam at school! So I know that if and when I fail (and by that I mean a B, which I know many would technically be ecstatic about, but with my parents, teachers, friends and peers, and most importantly with myself, eh no), it'll all be my fault and no-one elses. I've always regretted my approach to revising... but I just can't help it! I want to change but I just cannot bring myself to changing! It wouldn't have been so bad also if my school didn't require a number of A's to continue into 6th form... and since nobody actually bothers to look for another 6th form since everyone apart from those who wish to change schools are expected to get back in... I haven't applied for any... so if I don't get back in... I won't even have a college to go to... well I will since they send you somewhere... but how would I face people again?! The humiliation from my peers! This is killing me! Apart from maths, I cannot count another subject where I am certain an A let alone an A*! I took my Chinese GCSE out of school and got an A* for that but they've said that any subjects taken outside of school is not taken into consideration! I'm so screwed. I know I cannot change anything either... so why worry one might say. But how can I not worry?! I feel like such a failure right now and I don't even know my results yet...