How's the house (minus the horror of internetlessness, no internet was actually the sole reason I went home the other week
)?
Oh, so you really mean it? You realise this would involve meeting me For Real in Real Life? I only just realised. You really wanna help me make plans? Do not understand why you're being so kind.
While a door-to-door escort service would be lovely, I can't possibly ask you to come all the way down here just to go back up again.
Just the price for one thing (I just looked at tickets and oh my god trains are expensive). I could probably make it to Manchester. maybe. I mean it's only one train from London. I think I will have to go beg for benzos from the doc. And I definitely don't want to stay with your parents or drag you away from them (im sure they're lovely, but I dont wanna intrude and it's your family etc), I'll take a look at what sort of accommodation there is.
I think i'm generally fine with not being
skinny anymore (bones=frail, plus generally people involvement) but I don't like not being skinny and not being fit either. I feel very undisciplined and lazy. I actually really miss exercising and being fit and healthy and strong. I can only barely make it to 3 push ups atm
And not just strong body, you have to be properly strong-willed to push yourself and that plus physical exertion is quite.. I can't quite find the word .. empowering?
Obvious answer is just to start exercising again. You do make lots of improvements quickly when you're starting from nothing so would be quite gratifying. I just... can't. I don't really know why. I mean I can't exercise outside because Outside and I can't stomach the gym. Have been sort of doing some body-weight exercises but I mostly can't find the motivation to even get out of bed so is difficult to do anything consistently. So many excuses.
Hmmm I think this isn't really a body problem, more a Sultana finds another way to hate herself for being ill problem.