Hope everyone's bank holiday was fun and/or productive. Can't sleep right now as i'm in a sort of paniced and jittery state, brother's going away for a while and then will be gone for a few months leaving just me and the parents. I've sort of just been struck by unmitigated fear, whether of uni (the responsibilities, travel, finance, the course, dealing with social anxiety), meeting new people, putting myself in new situations with no back-up, not seeing nearly any of my friends for months on end when they move out.... I really wanted to move out for Uni and become independent but I can't stop caring for my mum as it's just irresponsible :/ It's just weird to think how much my life is about to change and how I haven't the faintest idea how i'll cope. Why can't I just forget about it instead of stay awake shaking and getting more and more agitated? I really need to get over myself. /rant over