Mental Health Support Society Mk X

No because im currently signed off sick so cant work :/
Dunno if i can or not dont think ill qualify for it though.
My mum tends to stay out of it to stop arguments... So yeah its his choice :/

He knows how to get hold of me he has my number and facebook...
I did. My dad started an affair because he couldnt handle another child when they found out about me... If i didnt exist my mum and dad might still be together...


Posted from TSR Mobile

Hey Poncho, it is in now way your fault that your parents split up and it's your dad's loss if he doesn't want to talk to you. He may just not want to contact you because he feels bad about leaving or something, but if not, he's a jerk and he doesn't deserve a daughter like you!

Just because he used not being able to deal with another kid as an excuse it doesn't mean it's true and especially not that it's your fault. a) not your fault you were born, if he couldn't deal with another kid he shouldn't have had one, its his responsibility to deal with his actions and he has failed by being a sucking dad to you. b) if he couldn't deal with another kid there are so many other things he could have done, the fact he chose an affair makes me suspect he may have already been thinking about it. c) even if you weren't born, it would have still happened. It boils down to his and your mums relationship not being strong enough or well matched enough for him to get support from your mother and visa versa. The fact that he chose the comfort of another woman rather than your mum shows that he was not a good enough partner anyway. If it wasn't a baby it could have been anything- a pet, a bill, a demotion at work, even a speck of mud on his shoe! Eventually he will have reached that stress level and come to the same decision to have an affair, etc.
and d) it may not even have been that, h could have just used it as an excuse to try to better his situation.

You are a lovely daughter and I'm very sure your mother would prefer you over having your dad back any day!! x


Posted from TSR Mobile

Anyway other than that it was still a kinda poor day. First, I failed abysmally at taking my first tablet of the day. I have no idea why but randomly I just couldn't swallow it. So that was embarrassing and after that I felt too sickened by tablets to take the others I'm meant to take for different things. Doesn't matter really but it's a pain and embarrassing.Posted from TSR Mobile

thank you that's really helpful advice definitely have been looking into playing tennis so hopefully once that starts that will be a good opportunity to get to know people and practice. i've tried befre with psychologists and it hasn't really worked out...although saying that i only gave it a go for two sessions and at the time i wasn't really having much social interaction so it was difficult to give examples...especially as unfortunately the whole mind blanking thing didn't exempt psychologists...but doing activities definitely sounds like a good idea and maybe once i've tried getting involved in a few ill try with a psychologist again so long as i feel im making some kind of progress... hope you are doing well anyway tonight, and thanks again for the advice!

Of course my laptop has to break the day before I leave for holiday means I can't go on holiday now and was going to be our last ever family holiday

Such a little thing has just really pushed me over the edge and now I just want to cry feel so pathetic


Posted from TSR Mobile

do you know what's wrong with it? maybe someone you know can help!? surely the laptop shouldn't mean you can't go?!

it's okay, when you feel down it really can be anything that pushes you to tears and stuff

It's the laptop bit where you plug the charger in. Battery is okay and the charger is okay, so it's the little port thingy which means it'll have to be sent for repair and I won't get it back before holiday . I've got a lot of stuff that I need to do before I go back to uni - stuff I can only do on my laptop which means I either pick going back to uni or my holiday

I can't even sleep because I'm feeling so s**t


Posted from TSR Mobile

Sorry to hear your day didn't go so well. I hate when someone else swoops in on ebay, especially when they do it right at the end so you can't outbid them.

I'm so glad I'm not the only one here who struggles with taking pills. You'd think I'd be used to it by now (at one point I was on 18 per day) but every so often I choke and almost throw up (or even actually puke). Nice.

I'm annoyed. I'm so stupid sometimes. My parents don't know I am depressed, although a bit odd considering everything I've done etc. But anyway, so they're anti - their kids having any sort of MH problem. So when something happened they kind of glossed over it, or made fun and joked about it.
Anyway, I was put in contact with the people who would do cbt, and i didn't realise they'd be sending letters home. Obviously I can have a c/o address but I don't have anyone so in my area/ who's close that could do that. So I basically had to say no as I live at home and they open my letters.

So I had my first GP appt this morning for house-binding social anxiety, some paranoia and OCD features apparently too she said, as well as the customary depression. Let out everything that I've pent up IRL over the last 6 years. They ended up giving me a prescription for Citalopram. I questioned her a lot about what I'd read about meds and how they seemed to rarely have positive effects and often had negative side-effects, but she brushed this off as a lot of people who don't really need it having bad reactions accordingly and none of them being clinically confirmed. I wonder what anyone's thoughts are on this view?

If anyone has any experience with Citalopram or generally what it does that would also be useful, and whether there is much point in me trying it for the next month before I go to uni and get counselling which I have more faith in.

Thanks.

I was on citalopram for about 7 months and the only side effects i got was struggle sleeping and constant yawning because it made me so tired.
It was helping the depression side of my MH stuff. It is worth sticking with it to see if it helps you individually


Posted from TSR Mobile

Thanks for your response. Will I become a zombie? Are there any lasting side effects / changes to your personality? How did it help you exactly? Ty