Sort of yes, I just didnt want to bother you about it
Is ok, I hadn't forgotten or anything - just obviously it's been hard to find time to talk lately. PM me/give me a poke on skype and we can discuss it again.
Is ok, I hadn't forgotten or anything - just obviously it's been hard to find time to talk lately. PM me/give me a poke on skype and we can discuss it again.
er really not possible I'm online quite a bit so if you see me and you're free say hello? That way its you bothering me
my thoughts havnt been very rational recently and its scarring the crap out of me.
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im meant to be a completely rational human being that can perfom adult tasks and sorting out an adult life. but instead i spend my nights crying and my days somehow passing as a human being. holding a conversation seems imposible today, its only me and my step dad for the next 22 hours or so, and i so cant cope with that.
Thanks hun. Feeling pretty much non functional atm but if I feel slightly better then I will do. Hope you're okay.
hope things get much better
urrm im about to enter breakdown tonight, my mum left home at like 2pm for a 24 hour shift, and my step dads told me hes going out TONIGHT he hasnt been out on a saturday in ages why tonight, im home alone, i deffinately cant cope with being home alone at night
urrm im about to enter breakdown tonight, my mum left home at like 2pm for a 24 hour shift, and my step dads told me hes going out TONIGHT he hasnt been out on a saturday in ages why tonight, im home alone, i deffinately cant cope with being home alone at night
can you talk to Rory on Skype to make you feel less alone? Or invite someone round?
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Literally dissolving already. Night times are so ****ing hard and im frustrated. I'm frustrated with people around me in real life and frustrated mainly at myself. cant cope on any level and im sick and tired. just need to rant cause im halfway between sobbing and screaming.
can you talk to Rory on Skype to make you feel less alone? Or invite someone round?
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Literally dissolving already. Night times are so ****ing hard and im frustrated. I'm frustrated with people around me in real life and frustrated mainly at myself. cant cope on any level and im sick and tired. just need to rant cause im halfway between sobbing and screaming.
hes asleep, left him a text, but i dunno when hell wake up i have no one round here, and those people i do have cant drive and neither can i
Argh meant to be playing hockey tonight, terrified about it. I don't know why I sign myself up for stuff - I always get really scared beforehand. There will be actual real live people there who I'll have to talk to.
Argh meant to be playing hockey tonight, terrified about it. I don't know why I sign myself up for stuff - I always get really scared beforehand. There will be actual real live people there who I'll have to talk to.
Argh meant to be playing hockey tonight, terrified about it. I don't know why I sign myself up for stuff - I always get really scared beforehand. There will be actual real live people there who I'll have to talk to.
could prehaps go for a little bit? because you really enjoy hockey, even if its to stand on the sideline and watch?
could prehaps go for a little bit? because you really enjoy hockey, even if its to stand on the sideline and watch?
I think I'd feel a bit embarrassed dragging all my kit there then watching from the side. Also can't play for only a little while as we'll be in teams and everyone will hate me if I leave my team one player down. My wife said to go, look around to see who's there and then leave if I don't feel I can do it which seems fair enough.
I think I'd feel a bit embarrassed dragging all my kit there then watching from the side. Also can't play for only a little while as we'll be in teams and everyone will hate me if I leave my team one player down. My wife said to go, look around to see who's there and then leave if I don't feel I can do it which seems fair enough.
maybe go this time without your kit and prehaps meet the other players, then next time youll atleast have been before. you can do it!
Try and stay distracted as best as you can to keep your mind preoccupied. How about watching TV or youtube videos?
hhes awake now thankfully, he said hes gonna text me all night so i feel safe. watching xfactor atm so thats keeping me going for now hope your feeling better
Ended up telling my parents just how bad things got for me last year at uni and that I'm scared that it'll happen again and they were so much better about it than they have been. They said they wish I'd told them earlier or at least when it was happening and they might have been more supportive and made more of an effort to understand when I was upset for seemingly no reason.
They also said I need to work on my self-esteem because I obviously have a low opinion of myself and I shouldn't, so I suppose that might be what I end up talking about in counselling when I go back.