why do ****ing ptsd nightmares have to be so intrusive the next day. have to keep remembering and then being all "no, not real, just a dream" but then by that point i'm thinking about Bad Things and intrusive thoughts are everywhere. hate this. wish i had cbt sooner than 18th cos theres stuff i need to talk about and i was too useless to talk about it last session. and i think until i next see her, i'm going to be preoccupied with it. making my brain want to explode.