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Original post by Sabertooth
Could you take a shower? Or take your medication? I used to have trifluoperazine and diazepam which I could take when things were getting bad and it worked pretty well, so maybe have a word with your psychiatrist about some kind of prn drug?
Could you take a shower? Or take your medication? I used to have trifluoperazine and diazepam which I could take when things were getting bad and it worked pretty well, so maybe have a word with your psychiatrist about some kind of prn drug?
Not allowed to have a shower at this time because the racket our shower makes wakes everyone else up.
I shoulld prrobablyaskk about that. :/ Thank you. 
Original post by PonchoKid
ill send some up in the post 
hahaha
i now feel sick with a huge food baby
had a good day thanks
theres still some left, well when i say some, more like 3/4s of the cake 
i got scared, cos it said thered be a dely from me lighting to it going off... there wasnt. cue a cat going crazy and me screaming!
haha i was impressed though, it was the first time id had one 
and yeah, me and rory went to town this afternoon and i went shopping rory got me some dunlops, a necklace and a ornament, i bought a dvd box set and 3 tops from the money my mum gave me, then we had nandos for lunch 
came home for a nap, then we got pizza hut for tea and had champers and cake i did a fantastic impression of a beached whale eariler when i got stuck on the sofa 
haha
hahahai now feel sick with a huge food baby
had a good day thanks
theres still some left, well when i say some, more like 3/4s of the cake i got scared, cos it said thered be a dely from me lighting to it going off... there wasnt. cue a cat going crazy and me screaming!
haha i was impressed though, it was the first time id had one and yeah, me and rory went to town this afternoon and i went shopping
rory got me some dunlops, a necklace and a ornament, i bought a dvd box set and 3 tops from the money my mum gave me, then we had nandos for lunch came home for a nap, then we got pizza hut for tea and had champers and cake i did a fantastic impression of a beached whale eariler when i got stuck on the sofa hahaLol, sounds like an amazing day
And thanks for saving me some virtual cake 
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Somehow ended up reminding myself that I'm alone, and you know what that means...
Hey guys, just thought i'd check in and say i'm still around and managing OK at the minute. I hope all you guys are still crusading on.
Started planning my boyfriend's birthday/ Christmas presents 
He likes Pokemon so i'm drawing (well mostly tracing) him a picture which i'm going to post on tickled on his birthday for part of it (he likes tickled too)
He likes Pokemon so i'm drawing (well mostly tracing) him a picture which i'm going to post on tickled on his birthday for part of it (he likes tickled too)
Original post by james1211
Hey guys, just thought i'd check in and say i'm still around and managing OK at the minute. I hope all you guys are still crusading on.
Glad you're doing OK atm
Original post by PonchoKid
Chocolate cake with chocolate butter icing covered in chocolate. Of course it tasted nice 
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ARGH, why my Internet no work when you're handing out cake?
Did you save me a piece?
Yay - mental health team coming for home visit this afternoon. They are listening to what I'm saying (I hope). I contacted them to stop me maybe needing Crisis intervention in a couple of weeks time as been sliding downhill too quickly. I'm hoping that if they do what I ask them to do, I can regain some semblance of control.
Added benefit means I can post on this thread again without being concerned I might breach TSR rules. (I stopped myself from posting a few times).
Added benefit means I can post on this thread again without being concerned I might breach TSR rules. (I stopped myself from posting a few times).
Original post by The_Lonely_Goatherd
Glad you're doing OK atm
Thank you, likewise
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Original post by los lobos marinos
Yay - mental health team coming for home visit this afternoon. They are listening to what I'm saying (I hope). I contacted them to stop me maybe needing Crisis intervention in a couple of weeks time as been sliding downhill too quickly. I'm hoping that if they do what I ask them to do, I can regain some semblance of control.
Added benefit means I can post on this thread again without being concerned I might breach TSR rules. (I stopped myself from posting a few times).
Added benefit means I can post on this thread again without being concerned I might breach TSR rules. (I stopped myself from posting a few times).
its good to hear you're thinking positive instead of focusing on bad stuff, and that isn't always easy.
the whole stopping yourself from posting must take a lot of self control, so remember you have that willpower when it comes to other stuff
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Original post by The_Lonely_Goatherd
Glad you're doing OK atm
ARGH, why my Internet no work when you're handing out cake?
Did you save me a piece?
ARGH, why my Internet no work when you're handing out cake?
Did you save me a piece?
Oh theres still cake, dont worry
Theres enough cake to feed an army of the MHSS regiment
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Original post by PonchoKid
Oh theres still cake, dont worry
Theres enough cake to feed an army of the MHSS regiment
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Theres enough cake to feed an army of the MHSS regiment
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I mean
Seriously don't know what to do anymore...
I think I might admit my self to a hospital
I think I might admit my self to a hospital
Original post by lonelybrummie
Seriously don't know what to do anymore...
I think I might admit my self to a hospital
I think I might admit my self to a hospital
have you tried contacting samaritans or nightline? they can really help sometimes when ur feeling particularly low. Do what you need to keep yourself safe,
i honestly couldn't tell you the best way of going to the hospital and sorting stuff with them, but im sure you'll get the help you need if you ask
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Original post by gemmanewman
Saw a new mental health nurse today who noticed the cuts on my arms are fading.
Anyway. She kept praising me for this and I came home with so many urges to hurt myself again. Just because she kept going on about them.
She was lovely though. But another bad day I'm having I guess.
Plus. New medication.
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Anyway. She kept praising me for this and I came home with so many urges to hurt myself again. Just because she kept going on about them.
She was lovely though. But another bad day I'm having I guess.
Plus. New medication.
glad she was loverly, but maybe if she keeps going on about SH next time, prehaps ask her to stop as it can trigger you?
Basically, I've been very unhappy for a while. I get incredibly anxious and cry a lot of the time (seeing GP soon, fingers crossed). I've pushed some people away. However, I have (had?) this friend who sent me a message earlier this morning- in short it said- (it was long)
"Everything you say is so ****ing negative you need to stop or just leave me the **** alone. I've had enough of how horrible you are, don't ever talk to me"
I absolutely cannot understand why someone would say this to another who they for well know is unhappy/depressive. Do they want to push me over the ****ing edge?
I sat in a cubicle, crying my eyes out and left. I don't even know what to do. What's the point.
What do I do. I have no one to talk to.
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"Everything you say is so ****ing negative you need to stop or just leave me the **** alone. I've had enough of how horrible you are, don't ever talk to me"
I absolutely cannot understand why someone would say this to another who they for well know is unhappy/depressive. Do they want to push me over the ****ing edge?
I sat in a cubicle, crying my eyes out and left. I don't even know what to do. What's the point.
What do I do. I have no one to talk to.
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Original post by gemmanewman
Saw a new mental health nurse today who noticed the cuts on my arms are fading.
Anyway. She kept praising me for this and I came home with so many urges to hurt myself again. Just because she kept going on about them.
She was lovely though. But another bad day I'm having I guess.
Plus. New medication.
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Anyway. She kept praising me for this and I came home with so many urges to hurt myself again. Just because she kept going on about them.
She was lovely though. But another bad day I'm having I guess.
Plus. New medication.
Cbt can also be triggering a lot of the time since you have to talk about stuff you don't want to, and think in a way that you're not used to, at least that's what im reminded of when reading ur post.
She only means well but yeah, if you don't mention something, she won't think she's doing anything wrong, so be sure to speak up in one way or another
Best of luck with the new meds, i hope they treat you ok
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applied for JSA, its actually quite a scary prospect
Massive argument with mum about what we're not allowed to talk about. 
She really knows what buttons to push to get a reaction from me. ****ty ****ty daughter that I am.
She really knows what buttons to push to get a reaction from me. ****ty ****ty daughter that I am. 
Positive Post YAY!
Woke up today and just felt very like things are possible... Had a more productive day today than I have for the last four weeks put together... Desperately needed after missing two lectures yesterday
Birthday tomorrow and a club in town is putting on a Willy Wonka club themed night with oompa loompas handing out candyfloss chocolate and sweets :3 who could say no?!
And to top it all off I'm going home for the weekend to see family and friends... Feeling very good today, sending everyone a million good vibes.
Woke up today and just felt very like things are possible... Had a more productive day today than I have for the last four weeks put together... Desperately needed after missing two lectures yesterday
Birthday tomorrow and a club in town is putting on a Willy Wonka club themed night with oompa loompas handing out candyfloss chocolate and sweets :3 who could say no?!
And to top it all off I'm going home for the weekend to see family and friends... Feeling very good today, sending everyone a million good vibes.
I keep making all these steps for regaining a living life instead of just a clinging to existence survival and I keep failing every time. It's not like I'm trying any massive hard things, it's all just tiny stuff that most people take for granted as part of their day to day business, like actually attending uni or mild socialising.
I'm trying to be all like "yeah you're not succeeding, but you are at least trying because you want to which is miles better than how you were just a few months ago" but I don't know if I really do want to. I sort of want to live but equally I don't think that's possible, and I'm just continuously proving that to myself.
Living with ptsd is so hard. Am swinging wildly between 'ptsd is **** im going to fight it', 'ptsd is ****, don't bother it isn't beatable' and 'im **** of course i will never be ok'. Don't really know what to do. Trying to focus on right now is pretty bad cos right now is still so horrible, but trying to focus on the future is worse because no hope so what am I doing.
I'm trying to be all like "yeah you're not succeeding, but you are at least trying because you want to which is miles better than how you were just a few months ago" but I don't know if I really do want to. I sort of want to live but equally I don't think that's possible, and I'm just continuously proving that to myself.
Living with ptsd is so hard. Am swinging wildly between 'ptsd is **** im going to fight it', 'ptsd is ****, don't bother it isn't beatable' and 'im **** of course i will never be ok'. Don't really know what to do. Trying to focus on right now is pretty bad cos right now is still so horrible, but trying to focus on the future is worse because no hope so what am I doing.
Original post by Sultana
I keep making all these steps for regaining a living life instead of just a clinging to existence survival and I keep failing every time. It's not like I'm trying any massive hard things, it's all just tiny stuff that most people take for granted as part of their day to day business, like actually attending uni or mild socialising.
I'm trying to be all like "yeah you're not succeeding, but you are at least trying because you want to which is miles better than how you were just a few months ago" but I don't know if I really do want to. I sort of want to live but equally I don't think that's possible, and I'm just continuously proving that to myself.
Living with ptsd is so hard. Am swinging wildly between 'ptsd is **** im going to fight it', 'ptsd is ****, don't bother it isn't beatable' and 'im **** of course i will never be ok'. Don't really know what to do. Trying to focus on right now is pretty bad cos right now is still so horrible, but trying to focus on the future is worse because no hope so what am I doing.
I'm trying to be all like "yeah you're not succeeding, but you are at least trying because you want to which is miles better than how you were just a few months ago" but I don't know if I really do want to. I sort of want to live but equally I don't think that's possible, and I'm just continuously proving that to myself.
Living with ptsd is so hard. Am swinging wildly between 'ptsd is **** im going to fight it', 'ptsd is ****, don't bother it isn't beatable' and 'im **** of course i will never be ok'. Don't really know what to do. Trying to focus on right now is pretty bad cos right now is still so horrible, but trying to focus on the future is worse because no hope so what am I doing.
don't even know what to say just so much empathy.
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had flashback during/after lecture today. couldn't get up and leave so just sat dissociated-shaking-tactiles for half an hour and went into full on flashback basically as soon as people had left the lecture theatre. maybe I am meant to think it's a ****ing achievement that I could hold it off for that length of time. my friend said it is *something* and its more than I could do a few months ago. but I still had to feel it and I don't ****ing want to anymore.
got so much stuff to arrange for academic things this year and its just making me wonder if there is any point. had a meeting with my mentor and basically came to the conclusion that I need to pull myself together, but it's so ****ing hard. I don't know how i'm meant to do one-to-one meetings with men, it scares the **** out of me, and I don't really have any choice if I want to get my degree. I think it might be too much hard. and I cant even tell anyone that because they will be like "what the **** are you even doing at Cambridge?" if I admit that someone's gender is a really valid reason to stupid ptsd brain to like not be able to function. **** I don't really know what to do.
