Original post by KellyxoBasically, we haven't been together all that long- but we've been apart of one anothers life's since university started. We started getting stupidly close in January this year, then he realised he had feelings there but wasn't sure if he wanted to commit, I waited and then by April he decided he did. Anyway, things were good, we were great. I'd never felt the way I felt about him with anybody, I could totally be myself and he'd accept me for who I am, which nobody has ever done. He went away for four months working abroad. We didn't see one another the whole time, but we were good- just focused on seeing one another again and I'm pretty sure we were head over hills in love with one another, otherwise neither of us would have committed to a long distance relationship over the summer. Anyway, he got home from working abroad and everything was great, our feelings both got stupidly strong, he admitted I was the first person he ever thought about a future with, we planned to go travelling after University finished, I even thought about doing my fourth placement year in his hometown. Then, I started arguing with him daily, he'd try and make an effort and I'd just throw it back in his face, it got to the point where his feelings did start to change. But we knew we were in a bad place and we were going to try and work around it. Anyway, that's when he told me 2 days after that he'd cheated on me and he didn't know if he loved me anymore because of what he did. I realised I'd pushed him this far so I took him back, we rushed straight back into things which I think really didn't help. Within two weeks, it was hurting me too much because he was so different, he was letting the guilt eat him up I think, it changed him as a person. Now we've split up I've noticed he's talking to the girl he cheated on me with a lot, yet he didn't know her all that well when he cheated. I desperately want him back, I love the guy. Everything we've been through together, I don't want to let it go to waste. Why is it so easy for him to move on but not for me? It's like he hasn't even realised what his done, he's just ignoring it by starting something new with this other girl? I'm so confused and so hurt.