I'm going to university in September to do history and politics, but my worry isn't actually about the course itself, its actually quite pathetic and silly to be honest.
The truth is that I'm a bit embarrassed by the fact that I'm doing politics. Coming from a strongly working class family, I feel like my friends and family don't understand what the degree actually entails, and just think I'm studying politicians and affairs at the House of Commons etc. and therefore think I like and approve of some of the negative actions that are seen on the news carried out by MPs. (I feel like even my teachers feel this way too- we don’t do a politics a level at my sixth form).Because some politicians are so unpopular, I feel like nobody approves of my degree choice, and I dread moments where somebody will ask me what degree I am doing, and I even leave the room if I think they might. (Pathetic , I know).Even my mum said ‘I hate politics, I don’t know how you can be interested in it’ and went on a torrent about how MPs are crooks and all in it for their own gains etc. which made me feel even worse.
I know you will all think if I was genuinely happy and interested in politics then I wouldn’t feel this way, but I can’t help it, and it is also something that I am really struggling to convey accurately on here. I just feel as though I could do with some advice and guidance on how to solve this problem, which is partly in my head, and partly not.