I'm 21. I graduated from University last year. I went to a local one. I went out a lot with them - like days out, we all had a good laugh etc, but since it's ended, they've all gone back to live wherever else and I've not really got anyone to socialise with.
I work, but I just feel my life is too much work and not enough socialising. I basically don't go out anywhere. Sometimes at work, they all arrange a meal which I've always enjoyed, but I want to go out more. The younger lot there (all my age) invited me out on the night.
I'm a young 21 year old. People still think i'm 17! I've never touched more than a drop of alcohol, and I've always been afraid to go out. Basically because I just feel really young compared to everyone else, and I'm not used to drinking and I just felt nervous about it. They said they'd take care of me (it was a bunch of girls/guys from work). Basically, someone needed to go to hospital due to drink. No one bothered contacting me, no one answered my calls, and I was just left in the middle of town on my own. I waited around for 2 hours. I walked around to the harbour, and just sat there on my own and I'm not someone who does this, but I got teary.
I go out a lot with my camera, or on my bike, but due to people's distances from where I live, different shifts, and because not many people I know cycle, I'm always out on my own and I hate it. I want to be able to go out with people.
I get called attractive. But i'm too shy. I've never had a girlfriend. I just feel so lonely. When i'm out, I see couples walking along holding hands and stuff and I just think "I want to be like that". I've never been a confident person. What can I do? I've been invited out again by the work lot, but I just feel too worried about it all. thanks! x