I would say that i'm not close to my dad.
I acknowledge and appreciate he worked and still works very hard to pay the bills and put food on the table. But growing up he never really spent much time with me. Although I know he was working yes, but he never really made any effort to make time to spent with me.
As I am the youngest of four, I always thought he liked my other siblings better which was kind of confirmed when both my parents told me why my elder sister is 'the best sibling'. I also figured as I'm the youngest, obviously the eldest siblibgs are the 'golden ones'.
But I tried hard for the most part to make them proud, as I truly did appreciate his time spent working for the fanily, even if we didn't have a close relationship. But recently I realised I should be aiming high to make myself proud, not them.
It's a shame really though. I mean, spending time working etc is fine, but both my parents would not be able to say what my favourite colour, food, music artist, books, movies, tv shows are. Maybe I'm just being picky... But they don't really 'know' be tbh..
My dad runs a 'supposed' family restauranr but never listens to any of my ideas about anything for it. I try my best to help but to him I'm seen as to young and niave to have any worthwhile ideas, he only trusts himself.
But he did give me the clothes, game consoles, ipod, holidays etc (of which I am always reminded of by my mum anyways), i feel a close bond would have been amazing, rather thab just buyin me stuff. I remember once we were on holiday andd he started smoking again and I ws about six years old and I was very upset about it and took his pack of cuggarettes and hid them, but he ended up just buying new ones and finding ways to smoke when I wasn't arouns and at that time I knew cigarettes were bad, and now he has lung disease.....
I am put down by my parents most of the time and my failures are always highlighted bd my strengths are ignores. basically a typical asian family right...
Saying 'I love you' to my parents would be weird, I know a lot of cultures from asia have that. But yeah the only consolation I say to myself is that my dad worked hard to put food on the table, but having a close relationship couldn't be replaced by anything, so I hope I can form this with my children one day....