So i know this may sound pathetic but around six months ago i began having a crush on my Maths teacher, it started because i felt like i was struggling in maths so during break time i spoke to him about maybe moving me down to the middle set because at the time i felt like it was a little bit difficult for me, he started telling me that he doesn't think I'd need that and basically just started saying really nice things to me and i guess i was flattered, i was also going through some difficult stuff out of school so it was nice to hear someone say something nice to me.
Anyways, after that he began to tutor me during my break times to help me with my maths and i confided in him a bit about my home life and everything and he was really nice to me about it all and would make me feel better. After around 2 months my tutoring came to an end as I'd caught up with everything but i began to notice that i missed his company and stuff, we still spoke every now and again (maybe like once a week) but now that the summer holidays have started i know that i won't have anyone/him to talk to or confide in.
Yesterday i spoke to a friend of mine and basically told her everything and how i felt alone and was missing my teachers company and i told her how i felt and everything. She told me that i could speak to her about anything but then she said "it is kinda perverted that you have a crush on him through, he's 11 years older than you- it's so wrong"
This kind of offended me and made me feel ashamed i guess, it's not like we have a sexual relationship or anything, he's just been there for me when nobody hasn't and I've been flattered by it all. Since she said that I've been feeling really guilty and like I've done something wrong.
What are your guys views? Is fancying him totally wrong? Does it make me a bad person? Sorry about the essay
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