So I don't think I've posted here but given I have adjusted to the whole results day drama I feel it's a good time to join in.
I have difficult to handle anxiety issues, particularly social, and I suffer from panic attacks. I suffer depression but it is largely a result of dealing with my anxieties as opposed to something separate. Anxiety appears to run in my family, with my grandmother having it, my mother seeming to but always insisting on brushing it off, and my sister suffering from depression which is potentially anxiety related.
Recently(last month gone) I have become better at dealing with it due to an improved friendship circle and a break from education. However, results went awful - I know the knowledge, really, but did pretty terrible in exams. I honestly thought they'd gone better but I left multiple times throughout exam season due to panic attacks and I can only assume they had an affect. I'm not resitting the year as I got into a university through clearing and while it's not a "top uni" or anything(Edge Hill) I love the look of their biology department and campus, and have visited before. They have good student satisfaction and graduate employment rates too, so I'm excited and not disappointed in where I'm going!(although still upset about not getting what I initially wanted)
But I'm feeling so down about how much of a rollercoaster everything feels. It's hard to not let my mental health impact my life so strongly, and even the smaller details feel so dramatic and get me incredibly worked up. On top of this, I feel guilty whenever it does affect things - I get worried it's going to be viewed as a silly excuse for things that people think are simply my fault.
I don't know why I'm posting this here, but I guess it's good to get things off my chest and ramble a bit. It's a bit of a habit, haha
I haven't read through the thread much yet but apparently I have a good way with words so I'll happily talk to people and provide support and possibly advice etc