Mental Health Support Society Mk XIV

She was just an utter bitch, but of course I just have to stand there and take it :/ it always feels like a personal attack as well, even though I know it's not -.- and I know, even our cds and dvds are only a pound!

Ooh well at least it's something! I still haven't been anywhere, so I'd better go tomorrow :/ oooooh stationary I still haven't bought any I think I've only reversed once out of the drive. It went decently but I don't really like reversing, I always get those spaces where I can drive in and drive out haha. In this car I tend to do anything to avoid stalling so it ends up revving a bit sometimes, I even managed to make that horrible squeaky sound once hahaha oops! Ooh I'd MUCH rather have a Fiat 500, but the bag is more practical with uni haha

I know, I think I'm just generally panicking about it all because it seems to have come around really quick! I started getting anxiety when I was about 12 on holiday, as well as my emetophobia, and I think the depression developed soon after as a sort of consequence of those? Nobody at school or anything has ever known, and I've never had an official diagnosis, because of bad experiences with doctors, so idk how it will pan out. I'm hoping I won't need to tell anyone. I'll also have to figure out who to trust, which could take a while I guess because you need to get to know someone first! At least you had someone to tell I guess

oh dear! Naaaaaah they're never scary
You know where I am if you need me

were not sure if this is written in the will or not, as we have never seen a copy. but i call bull****.
i reckon hes just trying to have a hold over his kids over something, as he lost me as a daughter at 6 months old.
i probably should, well just use my nephew as a decoy and get him to throw stuff at my dad

It's not working on mobile but I'll look when I have access to a computer

Watching American Horror Story at bed time is probably not a good idea :/

Feeling rather meh.

Ah Not fair of him to do that - particularly with the requirement
Haha Knit together some ammo

I'm sorry you're feeling rubbish again Did you say you were hoping to get some anti-dep's from GP next time you saw them? Is Rory about?




Think I might have an "early" night
Still quite confused/anxious-y about camping Will try and tidy some more tomorrow/get room sorted, then can hopefully still get away/ask Auntie and cousin to look after Pumps while I see friends Would be a real shame not to see them/go with them Been distant enough from friends as it is this summer, mostly my fault, as well as just living far away now. Bleh. Anyway.

just spoken to my sister about it (was gonna ask if we could meet him together so its not totally awkward) and she said shes spoken to him about it, and he wont give us the item untill were married.
it angers me SO much that he can decide this, what if i dont ever get married, and IF i do, he wont be invited anyway...
i want what my granny left me, not him have it.
im so angry right now it kinda hurts

For some reason I don't think people understand when I don't get enough sleep I'm really irritable. I'm a grumpy bastard. I'm called up when I'm dead to the world? I open my eyes long enough to answer the phone and then my eyes are closed again, I don't even raise myself from the bed, I want this phone call over as soon as possible - not having to explain the simplest things about computers or whatever when I'm too tired to be awake. I got to sleep early-ish last night. Didn't last long - woke after about 2 hours, stayed awake for another 3 or 4 hours and got 2 odd more hours.

Any ladies awake and feel like grounding a lonely psychotic goatherd?



Wow. I thought my opinion of your dad couldn't possibly sink any lower, but it just did...




Sounds very rough. I'm hugely unhelpful and responsive when woken up from my sleep. And I need, like, 10 hours of sleep to be in a vaguely good mood



Oh wow! That IS pretty amazing, dunno why you are playing it down! I got dead excited just reading that, even though I don't know which band and probs wouldn't have heard of them anyway (only listen to old tunes on my iPod ) Amazing that you managed to touch them and get it signed - go you! And well done for being at the front of the gig! Closest I've ever got at a gig was 5th row from front, standing

Im awake hun! You on your laptop now??

Haha oh hes nearing the centre of the earth hes sunk that low!


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hurting hurting

Yeah not good I always picture america as being hot every day, or snowing every day - is this not true?
Glad you had a good time

Hope it works out for you

Thanks for advice/encouragement I'm also not convinced about P@H - while I think having him in a shop/with lots of people will keep him interested, the cage/place they keep them just seem too small. Will give them a call still possibly/might not have a choice.
Partly just worried because it's a 3 hour drive to the shelter - not sure if the stress of the journey (for pumpernickel) would outweigh the stress of a small cage I suppose I'd be more comfortable having the long journey/having him in the shelter. Just that they'd probably care for him more while he's there. (Plus people visiting there will be there specifically to adopt an animal, rather than just get a pet?) Sorry for the ramble I really appreciate you reading all that from before though, too


Didn't realise they linked in/followed I suppose time-wise I knew they did Will maybe watch an episode each night or something when I'm back at Uni


Wish I could Remember I'm always here if you need a rant/anything


Ah cool That makes me surprised customers would be rude in a charity shop though! I used to volunteer/work in one for my DofE, but luckily was upstairs in the stock room just sorting books
Ah yeah, they're similar They're really small If you're not feeling well then don't feel as though you need to!

Haha, agree that it feels quite close now Yeah I'm not sure how I would've felt sharing a room Was cheaper I guess Though that said living at home now with relatives here is sort of horrible for having my own space - and they don't even come into my room that much! I'd say you're generally fine for getting your own time? At least I think I did just about - you have a lock on your door/can just stay there when you need it - I'd say first term people seemed to be out and about more, but gradually people start spending more time in their room?
I spent a lot of periods in the terms sort of just hiding when I've been bad - people did I suppose notice/asked "Where have you been Phil?" well, "people" being friends across the corridor Found it annoying/scary when they noticed sort of, but I mean it was okay
(Though as I say all this - do be careful to not hide too much, which I think is what I did probably Probably still will next year too)

Haha Of course, of course
Hehe ooo gammon and eggs is awesome - I should probably order it next time I'm at a pub/restaurant

Sorry she's been like that :/ Not exactly encouraging of her

I can't watch horror things at all - get too scared/paranoid after watching things like that. At least if it's night-time/dark.

See earlier spoilered long post/ramble It's fine, just I don't know. (though it is quite a ramble so don't worry about it )

I think in some situations like that you're allowed to say something (particularly as you're not getting paid ) I mean though I say that I'd probably be too scared to

Drive to the supermarket and get some Yeah haha I just searched around for one of those spaces Same Always revving far too high - especially on any sort of incline/small hill or dip I see.

I'm sure it'll all be fine in the end/once term starts Got a fair bit of time still!
Ah That's funny actually, my counsellor thought that maybe my low moods/depression came from anxiety - I get confused about it all though/what's anxiety and what's low mood - I'd always sort of noticed the low moods before the anxiety *rambles* Well try and get some support when you're there I imagine they'd have counselling and student support there? Don't know how good they'll necessarily be, I've found mine to be helpful though, I think
The good thing is that most people don't know anyone - easier to make friends Yeah, that's true Definitely appreciate them being here - and they're always super nice about it Haven't spoken to them in over a month though Used to text a lot but oh well Kinda losing my support network a bit Though luckily not completely *rambles again*


Thanks


Ah Not fair of him to do that - particularly with the requirement
Haha Knit together some ammo

I'm sorry you're feeling rubbish again Did you say you were hoping to get some anti-dep's from GP next time you saw them? Is Rory about?



Will be worth it (I think )


Laura says she likes horrors - get her to watch it instead






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Think I might have an "early" night
Still quite confused/anxious-y about camping Will try and tidy some more tomorrow/get room sorted, then can hopefully still get away/ask Auntie and cousin to look after Pumps while I see friends Would be a real shame not to see them/go with them Been distant enough from friends as it is this summer, mostly my fault, as well as just living far away now. Bleh. Anyway.

Anyone know what anti depressants are like


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Afternoon everyone, how are we all?

Todays not been so bad for me, i'm having steak and I found a new song that i've listened to on repeat about 20 times.

Big shout out to PandaWho for last night



They're great if/when you find the one that works really well for you

Afternoon! Way better than last night, that's for sure

Mmm, steak. y u no share?

Thats good then!

Steaks arent made for sharing

This is a good point I'm currently being kept out of scrabble games because people suck too much Having homemade chicken pie for lunch though

Any plans for today?

Party poopers! i wanna play scrabble!

Chicken pie sounds nice, i'd be jealous if i didn't have my steak haha and i'm just watching the arctic monkeys reading set and then jumping in the shower but apart from that not much what about yourself?