Mental Health Support Society Mk XIV

I DID IT!!!!!!

I survived my first day at college and people actually spoke to me through choice and it was brilliant AND I MADE FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorted out stuff today!

Booked train tickets just now, and getting a lift up with friends once I reach them. Half-packed this evening, and also tidied room a fair bit (well, a fair bit for me) and cleared out pet cage/hoovered and stuff

Also spent some more time with Aunt/Cousin today than I would probably normally choose to? But was quite nice in the end I guess Though going to a restaurant - chose margerita again so was fine Always feel silly choosing it because what I'd really want is this nice tasty sounding burger that they had on the menu But oh well

Still really quite scared about what meeting friends will be like/staying with them for 4 days/all in 1 (big) tent, but I guess I'll just see how it goes.
One of the people going is super friendly and empathic - I mean the others are also friendly and (for the most part) quite empathic, but she's always just been extra nice - and is also quite quiet/more subdued like me (for the most part )

ALSO - Just to say in advance apologies for rubbish replying I'm not at all sure what I'm going to do about charging devices actually, but I guess I'll just see how it goes! Hope that someone has a car charger

I just sent an email asking if it is possible to defer my postgraduate... .

Blah, I feel so lonely. I keep feeling this way and I dunno how to make it stop. Kinda wish I had a best friend who's a lot like me, whom I could rely on for anything and always do things I enjoy with, so I wouldn't have to keep doing things alone. But I'm 22, probably too old to find anyone like that now. I do have a boyfriend, but it's not the same; we're in love but we're so different from each other. The long distance probably doesn't help much either. Meh, I dunno, I'll keep trying with this solitude thing, but it's hard sometimes.

Am praying I will get to see a doctor on my team today. Six solid days of 24/7 observation so far and it isn't getting any easier. Not a single nights decent sleep and its horrible going to the toilet with someone looking right at you.

Am also half hoping to get discharged but I know they don't work like that. If they take me off this level of observation, they will make it sound like they are doing me a favour and it will be at least a week before I see a doctor again to beg to be released.

Unfortunately I have been kicked out of my hostel and they know that here and it is another thing they will use to needlessly keep me captive here. It is all so pointless, I have told them that as soon as I am out I am moving back to manchester so I will be out of the mh system again and I am not going to stay around here just to stay in a mh system that really hasn't helped at all.

this is ****ing sickening. **** this. **** this

college gave me a new interview

early morning one though so will either have to get a very early bus or crash at my mums to get a lift from her for it.

but anyway, means I can still potentially go which is good

gotta make phone calls today as well but other than that can chill

hope everyone is okay? lots of hugs for those in need of some!

Today is the worst, i want to just hide in my bed all day and not talk to anyone. I find out today if I get a dog or not so this could either make my day miles better or just ruin it even more.

SO yeah, how is everyone else?

What's up?



Congrats! What do you want to study?



Can you distract yourself? Some tv or a book? Aww I hope you get your dog

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Reading a book is good if you don't fancy talking to people or just start slowly doing activities for example I like to chat on forums or listen to music if it helps


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I'm on the last episode and it's been good


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Haha, indeed
Not even as a kid?! I'm saddened to admit I don't think I'm the greatest fan of sand now - mostly just skim stones whenever I beach - I think it's just too tiring making a sandcastle Lazy and pathetic as that sounds
That's fair enough though Particularly when it goes and gives you blisters (presumably partly down to sand? )

Haha, same Glad it's out the way.

Very suck-y Woo You definitely deserve help though

It's not really important but my makeup is on point today which is making me feel slightly less hideous


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I LOVE good makeup days. When you look ****ing boss


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hahah yeah even as a kid i sat on a towel or a sun lounger or something, sand gets everywhere haha i don't actually go on the beach, i walk on the concrete bit above the sand haha! I haven't made a sandcastle in years cos whenever we go on holiday abroad, we sit by the pool rather than go to the beach! I'm not going abroad this year though (thank god)!
i swear i have the most blisterable (i know thats not a word haha) feet ever, ALWAYS have like five -.- i know i probably should get help but part of me wants to think i can do it alone (I'm really stubborn and proud like that, i NEVER ask for help for anything)