Hello. I have before posted here with my profile but now i've decided to post anonymously
I'm a 19 year old boy who has social anxiety and depression, i'm going back to college to study Access to Business now here's the problem. My personality is ZERO (e.g i don't watch football and it makes me feel like a faggot), i'm scared of people because i live in London. In the past my college track record has been poor hence getting kicked out of colleges due to attendance (bunking off) just because i can't cope or make friends.
Everyone sees me as a loner or a disabled ****ing ****e. HM and customs have just sued my parents £5000 for poor track record hence the pressure is on otherwise they pay another £3000 if i get kicked out.
My question is im planning to take alcohol... It's the only way to help. I've had every single therapy and have had antidepressants and none has worked, however im planning next week to attend a social anxiety support group. So im prepared to drink just a few sips a day just to help me feel good and maybe become the most popular student in the college.
I just want to hear experience from others in which alcohol has helped them in college.