such a bad day. this is ****. no idea what to do. I hate myself. ****ing useless and nothing but a waste of everything. meant to have last GP appointment and last therapy session tomorrow. tempted to cancel them both. if they go the same as they normally do I'll only end up feeling worse. whats the point. head full of ****. nothing makes it better and I get no enjoyment from anything whatsoever. whats the point in living