ever since i got back to uni, I've obviously had to talk to loads of people about my state right now (tutors, friends, doctors etc) - and that I've changed over medications. which leads to the question of what i think of it - and then proceed to try and "show me" that i'm actually wrong in thinking that its not helping because i'm chatty and i smile and i go outside. ermmmm no - you asked me how it was going, and i told you, so why can't you just accept that?
i mean, yeah i do that, and i didn't do that on citalopram, but what I've noticed with the sertraline is that its increased my functionality but decreased my mood, if that makes any sense. like, with citalopram, i initially felt good! i didn't do very much but that was ok because i finally felt good - whereas now i get a lot done, i get out of bed, study, tidy up, wash, do laundry etc etc etc, but i have this constant emptiness, my anxiety can get really super high and my body image is through the floorboards.
anybody else get this? you feel like you have nothing to say is "wrong" with you because you're functional, but you're still not good?