So I've met a girl at work around 3 weeks ago was not really interested in a relationship or anything at that time but she seemed interested, cute and funny.
2 days later she asked me to help our pick some gifts for her parents as she was going on holidays the next day. So i went and helped her out and had a lot of fun (both of us). She started saying she was single and seemed interested in me but she was leaving in holiday for 2 weeks the next day so i asked her out when she was coming back and she immediately said yes.
All good Next 2 weeks while she was on holiday (back in her home country) we chatted for hours everyday and i really felt like we had a connection. We were pretty hooked up. Everything seemed so perfect and real ...
then **** happened.
She came back from holiday we went out all day skating, bowling , ice cream, arcade games. While we where at the arcade games she grabbed me and told me follow me and she dragged me to a photo booth where we had our first kiss. I had to admit i wasn't my best kiss and i didn't felt in 9th heaven but i was still happy with it. Then we where on our way back home and dunno how the weed subject came up and she invited me over to her house to smoke some.
Everything was going good , we went to her house smoked (tbh i'm not a regular smoker) so i got pretty high and she (regular smoker) didn't. Went back to her room chatted a bit , listen to some music then being so
high and over to
her place wanted some action since she asked me to her place and i was so high ! She politely declined me saying it's going to fast and she want to know me better. I was ok with that np. Asked for a hug and she gave me a big one.
Then i hit me even harder couldn't even walk back home (40 min walk) she had some strong ****, so i was like sitting there going through every possible idea i ever had in my head. Waiting for the effect to go off . She started arranging the room, listen and sing to music then we both got bored and was a awkward silence for a while then i finally ringed a mate to come pick me up. When i left from her place she briefly gave me a short hug and said bye ... was a bit bummed but ehh w/e .. We'll sort things out the next day, i say.
Next day we chatted on facebook , i apoligiesed for the night before and she seemed a bit off .. Asked what was up and she told me: ' i
felt that our first kiss is was not for each other.. ' that i kiss some much differit then her but next to that she likes me and had fun with me .. It might not been my best kiss, nor am i good kisser or w/e but seriously ?!? Not that experienced with womans but c'mon !!
I was speechless !! And asked her how to fix things .. What can i do !?! Coz i like her and wanted to be all good with us. She then replies:
I dont know. I dont wanna **** ur brain. I dont even know what have now. After that complete silence ... I was pretty bummed and didn't know what to do.
Next day we barely spoke small thing to each other on fb. Then she says maybe we should be just friends but still hang out coz she had fun with me.
I was ok if that's what u want np ..
And now i have to see her 5/7 days at work ....... And she's still chatty and giggling like nothing happened. Whaaat the f*** was i suposed to do / say !?!
Any guidance on this would be appreciated, even if it is to tell me i'm a retarded. Thank you for having the patience to read all of it !