Well I'm only qualified to talk about the Christian God, being Catholic and all that jazz! :jebus:
A few things to consider about the Christian God and any interactions with Him:
1. We are told somewhere (I forget where) in the Bible that the devil (Satan) can disguise himself as "an angel of light". What this means in effect is that someone who purports to be a good religious figure, isn't necessarily/automatically so. So you can't trust them at face value.
2. What this then means is that we must test any spirits that speak to/interact with us, regardless of whether we believe them to be good or bad.
3. So how does one test the spirits? You look at what they say and compare it to what your church doctrine teaches; even more importantly, to similar stuff in the Bible. If you can't find God saying something in the Bible that He has said to you, or something at least similar, then it's almost certainly not from God. Another option is to discuss what is being said with a pastor/minister/priest/vicar/religious leader, since they will have a better grasp on Scripture than you do atm.
4. Final thought: I cannot emphasise enough God's compassion for the mentally ill. He is not an angry God and does not get angry with mentally ill people
I really think you are very ill and need to be taking your tablets. I don't say this because I'm against you but because I'm your pal and I'm concerned for your wellbeing
Some food for thought.