I don't understand myself
I've had endless energy for about 2 weeks - Up on cloud coocoo thinking i'm winning the lottery (can't remember any of this - just have the evidence on this forum) followed by a 4 day anxiety attack where I was off the rails drinking, paranoid and doing all sorts of stupid things.
And now i'm not anxious at all, just completely exhausted, low and emotional. I'm not the kind of person who thinks negative thoughts about myself. I don't think i'm worthless or a horrible person. I'm just tired and meh and could probably sleep for 12 hours straight.
i'm convinced that this isn't triggered by outside events, just something wrong in my brain that I can't control.