What's your deepest, darkest secret?

i beat some people up who i reckon denied me standard knowledge..... they got smoe black eyes, and broken bones, and don't know who did it to them....

That's intense s**t

if so, and?

lololol...who are you to select what matters or doesn't?

I get really depressed and think about cutting again but then I think about this comment my 'closest friend' made about me being attention seeking by doing that. That's something that has stuck to me almost everyday ( it was said to me 5 years ago) and makes me over-think every little thing I do all the time and it really gets to me.

Also I feel really insecure about everything and have trust issues. I don't trust anyone any more and I had this really weird realisation that I don't really have anyone actually there for me properly like I am for them :/ I just feel so lonely sometimes and it makes everything worse cos my eating disorder and anorexia is coming back.

The worst thing? Every one thinks I am one of the happiest people they know. I just wish someone would realise.

I got diarrhoea in school in year 8, I had done really well all day but on the bus home I couldn't hold it in. I had the urge to go but thought it could hold until I got home. But the pressure kept getting bigger until I my ass gave up and I stood in shock as my pants filled up with diarrhoea. This was a true shock for me, I had never even wet myself since nappies.
Luckily my friends had gotten of at the previous stop so no one from school found out. But it was pure pain. I had to stand on a bus with **** hanging in my pants for about 5 minutes (which felt like hours). Then their was the awkward walk to my house, and then the worst part, getting home and bursting into tears when I told my mum I had am accident :'(

I lie to and manipulate excessively almost everyone I know in order to create a particular idea of me in their heads. It is vital to me I succeed in having someone think of me as certain person or image, not even always a positive one. I will invent a character for each person I meet, and I want them to see me as this character. I will go to very unacceptable lengths to achieve this. I also enjoy manipulating people generally, just to see if I can, like a game. Nobody has made me aware that they know I do this.

I can relate, but it wasn't diorrhea, just regular **** and it wasn't the first time

When I have a crush on a boy I get really obsessive. Crazily obsessive. I know a lot of people have intense crushes but my obsessions surpass intense. I will find out everything about them and be obsessed with them. I hate it so much and I can't control it. I hope that I'm not psycho once I get a bf though.