Hi everyone, I could do with a bit of help.
Last September I went to university, and I've had a fair bit of trouble with being away from home and my boyfriend (been together for 2 years, 4 months now). I had a lot of problems with anxiety, and I got behind on my work, and when i started to revise for some tests i had, i got quite obsessive and a bit crazy to say the least. As well as having extreme problems with sleeping (I get anxious about getting enough sleep when i'm not stressed if i have someone on the next day) which, I've never been this bad before, not even during my a levels. And I've has this at home too when i had essays to do as well.
And yesterday I arrived back at uni (really not wanting to be here and crying a lot before my parents and boyfriend left). I think its because of feeling lonely, this led me to want my boyfriend to come up a lot (every weekend), and we had soooo many problems every time he came up because I got more and more anxious and stressed over so long, I made myself ill quite a lot. But over Christmas we have been fine, in fact, really quite good.
Anyway, i got upset yesterday evening but my mum helped me by telling me to take it a few days at a time to not get overwhelmed.
And now I've been feeling a lot better, i've gone out to socials more (I don't like my housemates that much), and I'm planning on going out with a couple of friends later drinking (which I'm getting more anxious about as times get on anyway, I get a lot of anxiety)
And my boyfriend has just stopped working somewhere he didn't like and is jobless but applying to a lot of places and agencies. But today was his first day of being out of work and he texted me saying he was really upset and anxious, which upset me a lot because I want to help him but I really need to help myself first.
But I don't know what to do. I feel useless and upset and it always brings me down if he gets upset, which he does sometimes when i go out (one of his flaws, it makes him worry when i go out drinking, for my safety and because he gets a little paranoid due to low self esteem and such. But he doesn't want to stop me from having fun so he just suffers in silence). And now i'm more anxious about going out and i want to talk to him and help him but i feel like it will bring me down, and it feels like this is a massive issue that will keep occurring as it did last semester too.
I just don't know what to do, and wouldn't mind just having someone to talk to, if anything.
Thank you for trying to help if you do.