Don't be too hard on yourself - get that a lot myself, but is important to enjoy yourself too!
Though at the same time I always wish I did more work during that time too
Hope you're okay
try not to worry too much about essay
Not lazy at all
Sorry you're finding it difficult/impossible to focus - been finding that harder myself, recently, and isn't nice at all/so irritating :/
Try not to be too hard on yourself either? ^ Lots of
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So tired, got ~3-4 hours sleep last night, and have this whole dofe weekend from 6pm tonight until sunday :/
I think it'll be fun, and have lots of safe food if anxiety hits, and yeah, should be good, but just completely bleh about work, has sort of hit again now, just how screwed I am
Just want to sit here and cry. and just generally mood/MH being rubbish these last few weeks, and just feel quite stuck.
Essay presentation to do in 10 days, haven't even started yet, haven't a clue what to research/look at, how I'd present whatever it is I find out, and how or when I'm going to do this. Need to email someone about it but is just scary
Also need to have a GP appointment for physical stuff, and mental really, though just scared and don't know what they'll say/do. Feeling really bad atm, but then don't know what they'll say, or what they'll decided to do?
Like most of the time I'd say I only suffer from mild depression symptoms, but I've been dealing with that for the past 18 months, but then the NHS website just recommends talking therapies to help with it - which I've been doing for ~12 months now. and then it just gets situationally worse depending on what stuff I have on in life.
Blah. Just feel so so lost, going to fail exams too because I've missed so many lectures recently, and any I do go to, I haven't the faintest idea what we're doing really, and haven't a clue about questions or whatever. and can't see how I'm meant to manage any revision, or enough of it, anyway. Especially as there's this essay to write still, let alone just the presentation for it. Overall it's 5% of this year, but then even with just a pass, I'm just throwing away 2% off my whole grade because I'm too lazy/bleh to do it/to have done it.
Scared, and so low
sorry for the ramble :/
The only thing I'm focussing on/actually care about it cinema, completely apathetic towards work, and that's just stupid. Just stayed in bed most days this week I swear :/ (and watching
Friends )