I'm supposed to be going out somewhere for dinner with my girlfriend and her parents, but they didn't tell my girlfriend what time to tell me to be ready for so i've stepped out the shower to 7 missed calls off her and apparently they've decided to go without us and we'll arrive when i'm ready and we've driven over and they'll come bring us to their table.
This does no good for my anxiety, i feel like a burden, like i've ruined the night and i hate arriving late to things because then the focus is on me and i like to melt into the background. I hate going out for dinner with other people like that anyway because i hate the whole offering to pay thing knowing full well they'll say no and i'll feel like i haven't shown i'm grateful for it; because i'm too shy to say thankyou more than once without sounding awkward and my voice cracking when i say it.