Mental Health Support Society XVI

this was the first one ive seen and it's been up for a week now, I was getting a bit disheartened. Hopefully this bird will tell its friends you should try again


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I volunteer 12 hours a week in Oxfam, four hours a week in a homelessness charity and 19 hours a week in a charity designed to get me into work.

I'm in support group for ESA but get nothing other than ni contributions because of my inheritance which is partly locked in ISA's.

I stopped all medication a month ago. I'm meant to start an accounts night class in two weeks.

I want to pull out of everything. I got straight as at school but dropped out of my degree. I'm fed up. It's because I'm stuck with my parents and they work that I do so much for nothing.

I apply for jobs and get rejected. I'm not convinced that accounts training will help me get a job.

I don't even know what I want. I'm 23 now. The reason I'm trying so hard to get on my feet financially is out of some idea that I want a girlfriend and also a fear of future poverty. I have no enthusiasm for my volunteering or for accounts and going back to maths and making money from it seems unlikely.

I was diagnosed with schizophrenia at 20. Then another doctor decided a year later that it was social phobia, depression, aspergers and psychotic symptoms.

I have no real enthusiasm for any work based stuff. I'm reading a bit more now though.

Don't know what to do. Should I cash my isas , run my money down and then get the council to move me away from my parents?

Few up and uncertain about stuff. Although I talk about a girlfriend etc and enjoy talking when it goes sell, a large part of what I think about when I'm down or angry is to do with people including myself. Maybe I'd be better off in a supported flat thing.

I'm capable of doing a lot of people's jobs but they don't hire me. Not saying I could go in and start work as a dentist tomorrow but I could easily do shop work...

People talk a lot about the morality or whatever of work vs no work but I'm not sure the issue is as simple as that...I'm very confused anyway.

I'm in 9-5 from Tuesday to Thursday at volunteering and I'm fed up.

Some of the people there make snarky comments all the time and I can see a lot of corruption in the back to work charity I go to (like someone who I happened to go to school with with no relevant qualifications or experience getting an easy paid full time position because her parent is a director of the charity while I the apparently disabled one have to work harder than her to earn her money for her). The lady who gave this girl with no disabilities a job then has the cheek to make snarky comments about how fortunate I am because my parents are wealthy (when the othetr girl from my school has equally wealthy parents and no disabilities) fact is I earn the other woman's salary for her too by doing the hardnwork in the charity. I want to ****ing leave the charity but they are my references right now.

Just want to drop everything and go for walks and sit in my room reading. Having episodes of extreme misanthropy and anger.

Big squishy TLG hugs for anyone who needs them

TLG Update: Am back to feeling psychotic again Saw therapist today for emergency appointment - gonna see her this time next week too

urgh

Hope it calms down again soon, glad you could get another appointment though. Always here if talking would help, even if I don't know what to say and forget to offer half the time anyway



Same offer to you.


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Was actually social today! Really didn't want to go and came back early, but I went and it was ok in the end. Stupidly tired and so much pain now though, mood's going down a lot too but hopefully just tiredness.


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Think I need more LOTR and hot chocolate.

Was actually social today! Really didn't want to go and came back early, but I went and it was ok in the end. Stupidly tired and so much pain now though, mood's going down a lot too but hopefully just tiredness.


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You definitely would be missed

I love watching them at my mums, she even gets a woodpecker! Id left it up for that long the seeds had actually started sprouting haha!


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I wouldn't be. No one would miss me. Only my rabbits because they'd miss their food.
I feel really, really sick. No one would miss me. I'm alone and my throat hurts from the lump in it.

Hmm that's kind of like me except I don't even have rabbits to miss me, but every time I feel like that I do a bit of breakdancing and it lessens the pain, keep your mind off it.

Also, lots of people look up to you on TSR so you'd be missed by a lot people!

Think I need more LOTR and hot chocolate.

Thanks well done on being social!



You definitely would be missed

Well done for being social! Hope your mood improves