Mental Health Support Society XVI

Feel so gosh darn empty.

If you want to talk you can pm me? Im around




Yeah was supposed to be writing things down but keep forgetting about needing to write things down (they keep stealing thoughts Idk. Like i re-remember and then forget again idk its annoying).
They say i have to wait 2 months for an assessment for therapy - theyre restructuring my cmht though, so guess it might be longer now Well they said 12 weeks wait 3 (?) weeks ago i think. I have no concept of time.
Just think i need to just hide away from everything and then itll go away.

I don't want to feel like this anymore. I feel like nothing about me is original, that I'm **** and someone preplanned me to be like this and think like this and this is how I will be for the rest of my life, and I just want it to stop but it never will, it'll never leave me.

feel so overwhelmed and teary. sick of this pain

But they wont believe me?

ugh I feel that my bf thinks hes entitled to make decisions for me "because I am not mentally stable". Every single decision I make he calls stupid and dumb and doesn't accept the fact that I don't want him involved in my therapy

Listened into the handover about me. Apparently I'm getting more paranoid. I'm not though

I always seem to think that people say and do things just to remind me of my life at the moment (even though I know it isn't really true) and its scary

Feel so gosh darn empty.

It sounds like you're in a lot of pain - perhaps too much pain to believe what I'm gonna say. But I do sincerely believe that life isn't meant to be this hard, and that better days will come your way

I don't think they will. Everyone keeps telling me that and I can't see it happening whether I'm on medication or doing therapy or not. It's pretty obvious someone decided that I'm to be a depresses, useless **** until I die.

If there is some entity that governs the universe, I doubt it is that cruel and callous that it would force you to lead such a life

Me all the time.

Awww, Dukey!

feeling lonely again.

I really hate Facebook.

I'm a horrible person. I don't deserve nice things.

feeling lonely again.

I really hate Facebook.

I know this feeling!

Can we hug it out?

I just suddenly came out of no where! I;ve been up and down for a bit, but this came with no warning



Guess I'm not so great after all huh?

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iTunes seems to be pulling out al the stops to make me feel better though! Shuffle has provided some tunes about being happy and keeping faith

Well that's not true in the slightest. If you WERE a horrible person, you would have been given your MHSS Marching Orders long ago And of course you deserve nice things! Have I told you about my Evil Brain Theory? (I always start yapping on about Evil Brain and then no one has a clue what I'm on about )

Please, lets.

I don't even remember what true happiness feels like anymore. I haven't for a long time.

fml this is utter hell.

I remember you!!

Aww I'm sorry to hear that things haven't gone so well I take it when you leave, you'll likely not be in contact with him again or at least willingly?

it worse when you realise how great everyone else is doing.. D:

really feel I am learning crap all at uni, just trying to get my work done.. but I'm way behind!

Awww Cesca the "please, lets" made me smile big time Bless you lovely, bless you

I really hope you do so much!! I'm rooting for you and we're all here for you