Just don't beat yourself up. Everybody would be that slow. There is a "dumb slow" and a "can't do anything about it right now slow" and yours just happen to be the latter. (Sometimes everybody is dumb slow, of course, too.)
What video are you talking about? Have to get adapted to your new avatar.
Hope everything gets better!
Oh no, that is annoying, especially if your university can't care for it. (Which is a pity, because I have the impression in the UK there would be theoretically an understanding and the money for it.)
I am doing fine, mostly because I have such a nice team being able to cope with my character. Can't be around that much, because there is a lot to do for uni and after uni.
Perhaps. Is there anyway they'd be able to bring the date forward so you could see her sooner?
It's helped me keep grounded a bit more, thank you. Still feel low and the tactile stuff keeps happening, but at least I am present enough to know it's not happening for real? Does that make sense? Don't know.
no sadly not. she is high demand and im not back at uni for another week anyway. glad to hear it's helped a little bit. makes complete sense! I guess the whole point of grounding is so you know its not really happening, rather than making it go away? is so hard though, I know
really panicked and agitated. so not good. words are hard and just everything is hard and overwhelming
At risk of sounding like the crisis team ( ) - cup of tea time? When I feel agitated I like having a really hot shower and putting my head under the water so the main sound I hear is the water. Kinda feeling like doing that myself right now actually... Sorry, this is probably useless.
At risk of sounding like the crisis team ( ) - cup of tea time? When I feel agitated I like having a really hot shower and putting my head under the water so the main sound I hear is the water. Kinda feeling like doing that myself right now actually... Sorry, this is probably useless.
yeah have already had hot drink, a bath and shower today in order to ground/try and feel better and loud angry music. haven't tried walk cause isn't safe. but yeah, am continuously going through CT checklist
nothing much to say. when im lying there im just thinking about how hopeless my life is and how everyone has abandoned me. my harsh reality just hits home and it just keeps coming in waves. tried to pacify myself but in too much pain so have had to get up.
nothing much to say. when im lying there im just thinking about how hopeless my life is and how everyone has abandoned me. my harsh reality just hits home and it just keeps coming in waves. tried to pacify myself but in too much pain so have had to get up.
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I don't think your life is hopeless, although I do realize that it can feel that way sometimes. I have a book called the Borderline Personality Disorder survival guide, which was very informative about the disorder and what can be done to help it. One of the most interesting bits of research that it explained was that 74% of people diagnosed with BPD no longer met the criteria after 6 years and 94% of these didn't meet the criteria again for the rest of the study. I don't know how long you've been suffering but I think the fact that most people do recover might provide you with some hope. It really sucks that the NHS is being so useless towards you. How open have you been with your family? I think that seeing someone privately (even if just so your university will take notice what with you saying they didn't offer any extenuating circumstances) would be a good idea, but would your parents or anyone close to you be able to pay? You told me before that you don't have the money. Perhaps an early birthday present? Sorry if this is useless, I hope you get some sleep soon. And I would recommend that book if you'd like to read something impartial about BPD.
I don't think your life is hopeless, although I do realize that it can feel that way sometimes. I have a book called the Borderline Personality Disorder survival guide, which was very informative about the disorder and what can be done to help it. One of the most interesting bits of research that it explained was that 74% of people diagnosed with BPD no longer met the criteria after 6 years and 94% of these didn't meet the criteria again for the rest of the study. I don't know how long you've been suffering but I think the fact that most people do recover might provide you with some hope. It really sucks that the NHS is being so useless towards you. How open have you been with your family? I think that seeing someone privately (even if just so your university will take notice what with you saying they didn't offer any extenuating circumstances) would be a good idea, but would your parents or anyone close to you be able to pay? You told me before that you don't have the money. Perhaps an early birthday present? Sorry if this is useless, I hope you get some sleep soon. And I would recommend that book if you'd like to read something impartial about BPD.
Thanks. the thing is it's hopeless until I get some support. ive been dealing with this for over 6 years already. I have done every ****ing thing I can to try and work with them but they are just poisonous and do nothing but dismiss me and make me more ill. not open at all, they have no clue. I don't get on with my family at all and we don't talk about anything at all, makes me uncomfortable and creeped out to even be around them. thanks for the link, will take look tomorrow I think.