just want to be held and looked after for a bit. not that that will ever happen. however vulnerable I feel inside, I cant make myself vulnerable to friends or family. too many years of being instantly shut down and invalidated by everyone. and ive never had anyone who cares that much. I don't want children but if I ever had one the one thing I would instil in them over anything else, that they are enough and that its okay to hurt and to cry and be vulnerable. but they are perfect regardless. that they don't need to change for anyone