I'm not sure wether I have OCD or if I'm just a perfectionist.
Please don't reply saying talk to your parents, or go to the doctors because I'm 12 years old and I don't want to tell my parents.
I have to do 'compulsions'. For example, run up the stairs in 10 seconds or someone in my family will die. When I fail to do these things, I have to reassure myself again and again that everything will be alright. If I do something wrong I feel the need to pace up and down and start tapping.The volume of the tv needs to be on an even number. If it's not, I need to start tapping my hand against my leg, to try and stop something bad happening. Sometimes, I have a vision that my mum or someone close to me has been killed, and I can't go to sleep until I see her. I often get horrible unwanted thoughts about death. I try to block them out but I can't. I have to arrange things in certain orders. I get very cross if someone messes it up, and it often bugs me all day, because I think something bad will happen. I also do things a specific number of time. So, I like to do things 4 times. I cannot bear the number 13 or 17. I often feel very anxious about small things. These are just some of the things that make me think I am ocd. Please answer as soon as you can. Thank you. I really appreciate it.