Hi, I would like some advice (also wonder if anyone experiences something similar?) I don't know how to start it off so I'm just going to get straight into it.
Sometimes I think I may have mild(?) OCD, I honestly don't know how else to describe it and I have done a little research and OCD usually comes up. I guess the compulsive behaviour is that I bite my nails and although this is a normal habit for most people, I pick and chew a the skin on my fingers, especially around my nails and sometimes the skin on the knuckles. From what I rememeber in A Level Psychology, the behaviour is linked to the obsessive thoughts with OCD. But I don't know what my "obsessive thoughts" would be; I find I chew my finger when I'm bored, stressed, nervous and it happens everyday when I'm not occupied with something else. My fingers look gross and the skin on my right litle finger is raised and a discoloured from me damaging the skin.
This horrible habit has been going on for a long time now, maybe even 5 years or more? I can't remember how it exactly started. I know I used to have strange habits, I would shut and close my bedroom door a certain number of times until it felt right; I had to use both hands to do it and sometimes it was shut the door 20 times with my left then switch to 20 with my right, I couldn't do it 10 time because the number had a 1 and 0. On good days it was 4 times on each hand and I find it always always always had to be an even number. I mean this doesn't happen anymore but sometimes I find that when I accidentally touch an object with my right hand, I need to touch it with my left. So far this hasn't been dangerous but I'm a little concerned about it especially with the skin biting habit.
I haven't seen anyone about it and occasionally my friends/family point out that my fingers look a bit weird and it makes me self conscious, they know I sometimes pick and bite at it but I don't think they know how serious I think it is. I've tried not doing it and sometimes it works, I stop myself half way but other days I'm just doing it without realising until I've pretty much peeled off a lot of skin until it's bleeding and sore. I've even tried moisturising my hands so I don't get little hang nails or cracks of dry skin to make it less tempting to pick but it doesn't always work. However I feel sometimes I pick at it when the layers of skin don't look even and because of that the skin never heals properly and the cycle continues.