Do I have friends?

Over the past year or so, I have become distant from people who I was close too. I have made closer friendships with classmates but I feel that they don't want to be close with me out of school. I don't know why I just feel that because they already have their friendship group I'm not wanted. I have a group of friends who I hang out with it, but they all hate me.

I am one of the smartest in my year (without being cocky), but I have anxiety and a lack of confidence. Every exam I have taken I think I have done awful in, even if I get an amazing grade to be proud of after... No matter how hard I try I can't stop my anxiety. Whenever I worry, I get accused of attention seeking. Everyone tells me to 'shut up' or 'we don't care' or ignore me. Even the teachers don't take my anxiety or worry seriously...

One girl in this friendship group has always been 'there for me' but she never makes effort with me. She never has money when I ask her to go to the cinema but the next week has enough money to to on a shopping spree? I make an effort with her, I've been there for her in her darkest position yet she can't give me the time of day for anything? It hurts...

I am in despair. I am lonely, even though I have learned to enjoy my own company it still hurts... Maybe it's me? Maybe I'm the one who should change? Exam stress on top of it all has left me feeling even more awful... Help?