i'm so depressed. i feel so useless. i've been feeling this way since i was 13. sometimes i wake up and ask myself why i did. i have bad anxiety, sometimes my heartbeat is superfast and i get really sweaty in public places (i was in tesco and a lot of people who i went to school with work there and i started getting really nervous, i must look like a freak because i cant look them in the eye or anything and i always walk with my head down or scratching my arms or something, wtf) im terrified of physical contact too, my friends who are girls try to hug me and i get really uncomfortable, like i feel sick its that bad. i dunno what to do. should i phone the doctors or not, i dunno who i can talk to. i tried telling my mum when i was like 15 and she just laughed at me, i don't even know where it came from but i've been miserable most of the time for like 5/6 years now