Applying to a university in London for high school crush?

We're basically twins in this situation. I was literally thinking i was going to go to the uni by where he lives but we don't talk really so i just stalk his social media to see what he's up to, it's crazy, weird and unhealthy but i primarily do it when i'm alone. This is creepy but sometimes when i'm at school i imagine scenarios of what it would be like if he was around at that point in time. Do you ever feel like your wasting valuable time in life you'll never get back cuz thats what i do and every time i have a bad day i just think about "us". it's so creepy, that creepy i'm kinda wishing this was anon rn but whatever

It's not weird or unhealthy - in fact, in my opinion it's not true love if they don't occupy your every thought and waking moment! The thing is, very few people have experienced true love in its purest form so they can't empathise. But I can, and I can tell you that your love for him is beautiful.

I was 'in love' with my best friend for years. Obsessed by her. Completely consumed by it. And it destroyed me. You have (as I did) a completely unhealthy idea of what love it. Love isn't about pining from afar and making being with that person the only think that is important and ignoring all your other dreams. Love is about mutual trust and respect. It's about knowing that they will be there for you even if you're 1000s of miles apart. It's about not holding someone back from their future but instead supporting them with those decisions.

I'm not saying what you feel isn't real, but it isn't healthy. You could move to the same university as him, even study the same course and you'll probably never see him. And what are you going to say if you do bump into him? You can't say 'I choose this uni because I love you', that would make people run so far. Life is not a Hollywood romance where you meet your 'one true love' when you're a child and you 'drift apart' and you find each other as adult and they loved you all along too. Most people realise that their 'first love' is unrequited and move on. You say you've changed since you knew him, why do you think he hasn't?

But I believe that unrequited love is worth just as much as love requited. I love him with all my heart and with all my soul and I can feel it. I would even die for him. Have you read Wuthering Heights? I am like a female version of Heathcliff, and you can't deny that Heathcliff was consumed with passion for Catherine.

Remember when Cathy says, 'I am Heathcliff'? That is how I feel about him.

But I believe that unrequited love is worth just as much as love requited. I love him with all my heart and with all my soul and I can feel it. I would even die for him. Have you read Wuthering Heights? I am like a female version of Heathcliff, and you can't deny that Heathcliff was consumed with passion for Catherine.

Remember when Cathy says, 'I am Heathcliff'? That is how I feel about him.

But I believe that unrequited love is worth just as much as love requited. I love him with all my heart and with all my soul and I can feel it. I would even die for him. Have you read Wuthering Heights? I am like a female version of Heathcliff, and you can't deny that Heathcliff was consumed with passion for Catherine.

Remember when Cathy says, 'I am Heathcliff'? That is how I feel about him.

I do feel it's important to point out that Wuthering Heights is entirely fictional and written by a woman who had no known romantic relationships, and is therefore not to be taken entirely seriously as a benchmark of what love is.

This is a foolish way to plan your life. You barely even know this person, however much you persuade yourself that you do. He certainly does not care for you as you do for him, since he has had opportunities to pursue a relationship and has not taken them up. You seem to be in love with the idea of being a person hopelessly in love. By all means apply to London. There are many good universities there and you'll do yourself no harm by attending one. Don't delude yourself that by being in the same city he will suddenly care for you, since you have proof that being in the same school with you didn't make him feel that way. I know this sounds harsh, but you will look back on this and cringe, so don't do anything that will make you cringe more by throwing yourself at him.

Fine. If you want to risk your mental health and ignore any chance of happiness by focusing on someone you've not spoken to for a year and a half rather than studying and making friends and having hobbies then go on. But you need to be aware that this image of him in your mind is not him. You are in love with an idea of who he is and what the relationship would be like. You are not in love with him.

But I believe that unrequited love is worth just as much as love requited. I love him with all my heart and with all my soul and I can feel it. I would even die for him. Have you read Wuthering Heights? I am like a female version of Heathcliff, and you can't deny that Heathcliff was consumed with passion for Catherine.

Remember when Cathy says, 'I am Heathcliff'? That is how I feel about him.

In my opinion, fiction is closer to reality than the rationalist's perception of 'reality' is. Reality is much darker and more inexplicable than pure reason can tell us: we're blinded by the materialism of our society, led into a false consciousness where our thoughts are dictated by ideology. We can't always trust what those governmental institutions tell us about mental health and 'normal' behaviour - it's all *******s.
I know I love him, full stop.

In my opinion, fiction is closer to reality than the rationalist's perception of 'reality' is. Reality is much darker and more inexplicable than pure reason can tell us: we're blinded by the materialism of our society, led into a false consciousness where our thoughts are dictated by ideology. We can't always trust what those governmental institutions tell us about mental health and 'normal' behaviour - it's all *******s.
I know I love him, full stop.

I don't think that really means anything. It doesn't really make very much sense. I can't see what governmental institutions have to do with anything whatsoever. What I am sure about is that you will eventually come to see that this as a crush and I am also sure that nothing anyone on here can say is going to do anything other than make you become further entrenched in your belief in your one true love. From a practical point of view, as I said, there are many good universities in London and you will come to no harm going to one of them.

In my opinion, fiction is closer to reality than the rationalist's perception of 'reality' is. Reality is much darker and more inexplicable than pure reason can tell us: we're blinded by the materialism of our society, led into a false consciousness where our thoughts are dictated by ideology. We can't always trust what those governmental institutions tell us about mental health and 'normal' behaviour - it's all *******s.
I know I love him, full stop.

Fiction is closer to reality than reality is?

So governments are lying about mental health problems that cost the country billions in health care and benefits? Do you believe that every person with a diagnosed mental illness is complicit in these lies? I know from my lived experience that what you are feeling isn't healthy long term.

If you are certain you're doing the right thing then why did you feel the need to ask strangers on the internet their opinions?

Have you considered the possibility that Romantic Love could also be a culturally determined ideological construct?

That is true, but who's to say that my feelings for him have to be labeled 'romantic love'? At the basest level, they are instinctive impulses that lead me into pursuing him relentlessly, and this comes from no culturally determined ideological dication. And I shall do my best to satisfy these impulses, without stepping too far over the boundaries of 'sanity' and 'civilisation'