How do I overcome this fear?
If you knew me, you'd be pretty surprised because I come across as outgoing but really I find it hard to trust humans, I find it hard to let people into my inner self. I believe that deep down, we're such selfish animals it's not worth it.
Now, some may say 'it's fear of rejection and I need to get out there more' but it's not. Because if I find a girl tomorrow who wanted to be with me/date I'd probably be more scared of what would happen than if she rejected me. Having to share something with someone is so foreign to me, I've never had to consider anyone other than myself.
I have one close friend in my life and a load of other people I just get drunk with. Heck, now that uni is over and I've moved to a completely foreign area for work, I have nothing. I'm building from scratch, again. I moved 4 times between 10 and 21 so maybe that's impacted my ability to develop strong, meaningful connections.
But I know this isn't a healthy way to go about life. I don't want to end up rich, alone and miserable. Any ideas on how I can change this?
I could jump into a relationship tomorrow, but I don't think it's right to treat a girl like a guinea pig.
Thanks for your advice.