What is your life story?

My life story: My dad gave his sperm to the doc, he put it into my mums egg, and I was born. I was an IVF baby That is my life story

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I was born in the London borough of Lambeth to my mother, aged 28, in December, 1995. We lived in a house in Croydon along with my sister - who's 10 years older than - till my mother's death in 1999. My grandmother adopted me and I spent the next couple of years living with her and her husband in a flat in Thorton Heath. My sister didn't want to live with us at the time as she found my grandmother too controlling so I only got to see her occasionally.

I moved to Trinidad in 2002 and started primary school. I was a year ahead and thus did the 11+ at 10. I got into a good high school however none of my primary school friends made it. I experienced race-related bullying at the school and dropped out. I had a mental breakdown due to my unhappy home life and spent some of the year institutionalized and in receipt of therapy.

Getting transferred to another school took a year (Carribean for you) so I started my new school the following September and spent 3 years there. It was a boys school and for the most part, I enjoyed going. My sister - who still lived in the UK - had her first MH section for bipolar disorder so grandma and I readied ourselves to return to the UK to visit her and lend our support for the summer. I opted to stay in the UK with my sister. The home situation with her soon became quite toxic. She got worse and worse as time went on and directed her negative attitudes toward me.

Left her and went briefly into foster care and then moved to Greater Manchester and lived in a care home for my GCSEs. Moved out into an apartment for my A levels. Was worried about my grandmother as so invited her to live near to me. A year or so after her relocation, she was diagnosed with Alzheimer's dementia after presenting with worrying symptoms. I became her primary carer. My AS grades were fairly good but my A2s were disappointments along with my subsequent attempts at resits.

I'm now working at a school and am reresitting. I've applied for University and am awaiting offers. I'm quite hopeful for the future. MH has improved loads and relationships with various family members has grown stronger despite the difficulties.

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Ethnically from Nigeria, born in London,1997 and is the second oldest since my older bro born in 1995, younger bro born 1999 and sis born 2005. Well I guess this all starts from when my parents met in 1993, and they got married in the same year..wtf. Anyway they were going to have a baby in 1994 but they were not financially stable for the baby and didn't have indefinite stay so they aborted the baby which would now be my 21 year older sister. They got more comfortable by 1995 to have my old bro then in 1997 they got their stay. When me and my older bro were toddlers my mum noticed how delayed our speech was. I said single words at age 2 and didn't speak probably till age 4. Even my little bro's speech was delayed they gave us speech therapy at young ages. I didn't speak to people rarely if they were outside my family "similar" not the same but similar with my bros but that's important later on.

Early primary school I was very quiet at school barely spoke and at home I was very loud and annoying with my bros, it was kinda the same for them. Interestingly we had family friends that we were loud with especially me since they came to our house a lot where we are in our element. Later on through primary still very quiet but loud at home, I always saw people outside our family as cleaner and just different I mean we were quite messy as kids even now..but It was more than that, I always saw them as different and I thought my bros did too...Later on in primary I realised my bros started being normal with their friends at school just as loud as they were at home while I was still really shy with them.

In 2005 my mum had treatment for some cancer she had since the 1996/7(my birth so prob caused by me) and my father looked after us and newborn sis while having an affair(didn't know at the time). Mother came back from hospital and father left the house just before autumn of 2005. Mother needed more treatment so we went into foster care throughout 2005/6 which I actually enjoyed as I was young. Back to late primary now I was still very quiet here and cryed like every month but didn't act like this at home.

Secondary school started and was even quieter so but Yr7 was doable. Yr8 was the worst year ever, class bully started saying I smelled like piss, and in a few weeks actually did BUT ONLY AT SCHOOL . In yr7 i could pretend to be in group and watch them talk but couldn't even do this now. Also bullied for having a really flat head. I finally correctly realised I had some sort of mental disorder in yr8 but thought it was autism which it prob isnt. Anyway rest of secondary school and A-levels was being in a group and watching them speak and occasionally chipping in to make me seem normal.

This unknown disorder makes me scared of speaking and being myself to people outside my family, its also what made me stink as I could literally never reproduce the smell at home. My bros are all now very normal they are just as talkative to their friends as they are with me and I know that sounds like well duh, but this is from my dodgey mental disorder prespective. So them being just shy during early childhood while I had a serious mental illness got in the way of the help I really needed since we acted so similar. My mum has been very sick since 2013 and it aint getting better nor worse, so that sucks.

Currently over the last few months I have realised that I shouldn't be blamed for the awkward ways I have acted with people and how quiet I was at school or how my mother always shouted me for being described at parents evenings as quiet or the stink I have outside home. It's this ****ing disorders fault not mine and I have been reluctant to think that all my life. Looking online it looks like I have mostly avoidant personality disorder and some elements of selective mutism but I don't have either of them 100% so I am still clueless to what's wrong with me.I am now currently at uni being very awkward with my housemates, only "friends"(can't real feel bonds with people outside fam as I am not being myself, very stiff) are people that speak to me first and most people don't do that. I am about to start therapy here. Right now my life goal is just to be normal and feel real emotions and have friends I can dance sing and vibe with just like my siblings. That's all

I was born in 1997 in a small town in Worcestershire. I have a sister who's 11 and a brother who's 5. I don't live with my parents anymore though, I live in my college accommodation. I was a quiet child who didn't socialise much and didn't have many friends. At aged 10 I was finally diagnosed with Aspergers and an anxiety disorder after being wrongly diagnosed with ADHD.

My middle school was crap - after they found out I had Aspergers they treated me completely differently and told me I'd never get a Maths GCSE, do A-Levels, go to University etc.

I loved my high school though, they were so so supportive. I ended up getting 9 GCSEs (including an A in Maths) and was able to do A-Levels. Unfortunately my first college wasn't as supportive as my high school had been - I also chose completely the wrong subjects and because of the lack of support I was reluctant to go in and my attendance was low. I ended up with EEUU.

I moved colleges, changed subjects and repeated year 12. At the start of the year my confidence was at an all-time low, and I doubted whether I could do anything. I was unable to speak up in class and could not give presentations. However through the year my confidence increased and by the end of the year I gave a class presentation. I ended up with ABC which was more than I'd ever expected.
I'm now doing A2's and have applied to University to do Politics Joint Honours. So far I have 2 offers. Eventually I'm hoping to actually have a career in Politics so I can work to help end disability and mental health stigma.

A week ago, though, my Grandad was diagnosed with an agressive brain tumour. He has up to 18 months. I've never really been close to him and as I have Aspergers I'm really struggling to deal with these emotions, and do not want to tell my college.

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Wow, you're very sympathetic lol

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You are, judging from your last three posts!

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My name is Imperion and I make music under Imperion as well(Was formerly Roman but got advice from my trusted advisers I changed it, bite me.) I want to join Monstercat soon and I love kitchenstep #Rattlesnake #Ultimatum #Heist Ifunomsayin'. I want to make kitchenstep as there isn't enough in the world after Barely Alive basically **** on the genre Just kitchenstep:

I am really sorry to hear about your grandfather, and I hope you'll be able to cherish these final moments with him as much as possible in the coming months. I admire your strength going through these years and admirable fact that you were able to retake year 12 and were able to get the grades you wished for. I would also like to congratulate you with the grades that you achieved in your whole school life, and I'm glad you were able to prove those stupid teachers wrong well done on your uni offers and I a hundred per cent support what you would like to do in the future to help those around you. I really do admire you and your strength! Do PM me if you would ever like to talk xxx

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Omg. I am extremely sorry for the loss of your mother at such a young age - it must've been really hard for you and your sister. I am also sorry about your grandmother and your sister. You've been through so much, and hand to my heart I am honestly crying right now. I am so happy that you were able to go through with your GCSEs and AS Levels with all that you've been through. I hope you succeed in life and you will forever be in my prayers. I really do admire your strength. Very good luck for the future and just PM me if you would ever like to talk. Xxx <3

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How can you call your mum a gold digger though

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My man makes music O_o - why didn't you tell me this!!! loool