Made a complete fool of myself, embarrassed and wishing I'd never been born

If your not into drugs, why are you making friends with people who are into drugs?

That's a fair criticism, but like I said I don't make friends easily, so I was just happy that I'd made a new mate and he actually wanted to do something with me outside of lectures

On another note - are you *sure* you want to start smoking weed at uni? Illegality and health implications aside, that stuff isn't great for getting things done: it's a real motivation killer and it's insidious, so you don't always notice the effect it's having.

First year student here, just had a horrific experience smoking weed. I've always had trouble making friends and I came to uni desperate to fit in, and in my efforts to do this I've spent the first month or so drinking too much, and I recently started smoking grass for the first time since I was about 15 (I would sometimes smoke with my friends at parties and stuff, I was never a regular smoker).

Today one of my new pals invited me to come with him to his stoner friends house to smoke a few Js. We went into this guy's house and it was a hell hole. His room was boiling so I was sweating buckets before we even started. I hadn't had much to eat that day either, which certainly didn't help things. My friend and the stoner began talking about stoner stuff, so I couldn't join in on any of the conversation because I am completely clueless.

When the stoner had rolled two joints we walked outside and lit up. As this was my 4th time since getting to uni I was feeling a little confident, started taking huge drags from this joint, big mistake as I soon found out when we went back up to the stoner's room. It was hot as ever and I felt all the blood rush to my head, my legs began shaking, vision was blurry as ****.

I fell flat on my arse and knocked my head. After sharing 2 joints. In front of a room of 5 strangers and my new friend, who probably wants nothing to do with me now. He still helped me get home, and tried to be supportive but I could tell he was embarrassed. I'd told him I'd smoked before (which isn't a lie but I think he was expecting me to be able to take it) and now I feel as though I've bigged myself up to be something I'm not.

Now there are 5 strangers out there who just know me as that weird kid who came in, didn't say a word and then completely wrecked himself after two joints, and then there's my friend who now thinks I'm a lightweight and a liar, and I completely ruined his evening. My flatmates found out what happened too and now they all probably think less of me. I'm so worried this is going to spread and I'll get a reputation for being a bull****ter/weirdo/lightweight. I know this probably sounds quite pathetic and an overreaction, but it really takes very little to knock my self-confidence.

What would you guys' advice be? How do you come back from something embarrassing like this? Something so embarrassing that you can't even laugh it off because it isn't funny in the slightest and it's just pathetic? Am I being paranoid and overreacting?

Sorry for making this so long + thanks in advance

First year student here, just had a horrific experience smoking weed. I've always had trouble making friends and I came to uni desperate to fit in, and in my efforts to do this I've spent the first month or so drinking too much, and I recently started smoking grass for the first time since I was about 15 (I would sometimes smoke with my friends at parties and stuff, I was never a regular smoker).

Today one of my new pals invited me to come with him to his stoner friends house to smoke a few Js. We went into this guy's house and it was a hell hole. His room was boiling so I was sweating buckets before we even started. I hadn't had much to eat that day either, which certainly didn't help things. My friend and the stoner began talking about stoner stuff, so I couldn't join in on any of the conversation because I am completely clueless.

When the stoner had rolled two joints we walked outside and lit up. As this was my 4th time since getting to uni I was feeling a little confident, started taking huge drags from this joint, big mistake as I soon found out when we went back up to the stoner's room. It was hot as ever and I felt all the blood rush to my head, my legs began shaking, vision was blurry as ****.

I fell flat on my arse and knocked my head. After sharing 2 joints. In front of a room of 5 strangers and my new friend, who probably wants nothing to do with me now. He still helped me get home, and tried to be supportive but I could tell he was embarrassed. I'd told him I'd smoked before (which isn't a lie but I think he was expecting me to be able to take it) and now I feel as though I've bigged myself up to be something I'm not.

Now there are 5 strangers out there who just know me as that weird kid who came in, didn't say a word and then completely wrecked himself after two joints, and then there's my friend who now thinks I'm a lightweight and a liar, and I completely ruined his evening. My flatmates found out what happened too and now they all probably think less of me. I'm so worried this is going to spread and I'll get a reputation for being a bull****ter/weirdo/lightweight. I know this probably sounds quite pathetic and an overreaction, but it really takes very little to knock my self-confidence.

What would you guys' advice be? How do you come back from something embarrassing like this? Something so embarrassing that you can't even laugh it off because it isn't funny in the slightest and it's just pathetic? Am I being paranoid and overreacting?

Sorry for making this so long + thanks in advance

First year student here, just had a horrific experience smoking weed. I've always had trouble making friends and I came to uni desperate to fit in, and in my efforts to do this I've spent the first month or so drinking too much, and I recently started smoking grass for the first time since I was about 15 (I would sometimes smoke with my friends at parties and stuff, I was never a regular smoker).

Today one of my new pals invited me to come with him to his stoner friends house to smoke a few Js. We went into this guy's house and it was a hell hole. His room was boiling so I was sweating buckets before we even started. I hadn't had much to eat that day either, which certainly didn't help things. My friend and the stoner began talking about stoner stuff, so I couldn't join in on any of the conversation because I am completely clueless.

When the stoner had rolled two joints we walked outside and lit up. As this was my 4th time since getting to uni I was feeling a little confident, started taking huge drags from this joint, big mistake as I soon found out when we went back up to the stoner's room. It was hot as ever and I felt all the blood rush to my head, my legs began shaking, vision was blurry as ****.

I fell flat on my arse and knocked my head. After sharing 2 joints. In front of a room of 5 strangers and my new friend, who probably wants nothing to do with me now. He still helped me get home, and tried to be supportive but I could tell he was embarrassed. I'd told him I'd smoked before (which isn't a lie but I think he was expecting me to be able to take it) and now I feel as though I've bigged myself up to be something I'm not.

Now there are 5 strangers out there who just know me as that weird kid who came in, didn't say a word and then completely wrecked himself after two joints, and then there's my friend who now thinks I'm a lightweight and a liar, and I completely ruined his evening. My flatmates found out what happened too and now they all probably think less of me. I'm so worried this is going to spread and I'll get a reputation for being a bull****ter/weirdo/lightweight. I know this probably sounds quite pathetic and an overreaction, but it really takes very little to knock my self-confidence.

What would you guys' advice be? How do you come back from something embarrassing like this? Something so embarrassing that you can't even laugh it off because it isn't funny in the slightest and it's just pathetic? Am I being paranoid and overreacting?

Sorry for making this so long + thanks in advance

Responding to this especially because we've had a couple of other comments along these lines:

Do we really need the alarmist talk?

I'm quite sure that most people are aware when they're smoking weed that they're probably not going to be super productive. When you see stoners not doing anything with their lives, it's not because of the weed. That has it the wrong way round. They spend all their days smoking because they're not motivated, not the other way round. If it were otherwise, it's hard to see how the PM could be where he is despite smoking all the time at Oxford. I'm pretty sure Obama is on record as having smoked weed in his college days too.

Personally I don't even like it, so this isn't me getting defensive, but your post is a little OTT. Also, as a matter of policy, if you want to discourage people from doing themselves harm through drugs, crying wolf about essentially harmless ones isn't going to help.