Im a 20 year old male who was and still are interested in females. Im also going out with a girl now 6 months and i really enjoy sexual intercourse with her even though i had sex with her once and it was only 2 weeks ago, shes only 17 so the only reason we waited was because i wanted her to be ready, it was my first proper time as well, anyways, I have been watching porn since i was 13 and got addicted pretty easily, i have masturbated at least once a day since then and experimented with pornography by watching gay,shemale and bi porn, mostly gay, i know its normal to experiment with porn. The last few weeks i have had gay thoughts and believed that i had a thing for men, but its on and off, i have been reading a lot about "how do you know your gay" and i was making myself believe i was and i couldnt except it but then i did but was still unsure so i thought i was bi but still unsure. I have read that straight men csn think there gay "H.O.C.D" and i can relate to it. I have had a difficult child hood with divorced parents which i was use to from a young age so that was normal but still a lot of arguing and conflict between parents. I dont have a great relatiinship with my father even i love him, i am a very empathetic person also. I have been smoking weed since 13 and started taking cocaine the last year but i am currently off all drugs and stopped masturbating which im sure will help me figure out whats going on.